|Honestly, I never thought it would be possible to ever have another healthy baby... but God is GOOD!!
We found out that we were pregnant in December of 2004. From the second that I found out I was pregnant I would not let myself believe that this baby would live. I know that it sounds terrible, but I couldn't help but think the worst. Even at my ultra-sound, I hardly believed the ultra-sound tech when she said that my baby was perfect - I even saw her round head but still I couldn't believe it. I had a really hard time bonding with Isabela while she was in my womb but as soon as I saw her and held her in my arms, oh I don't even think that I can describe it, it was just the most wonderful feeling in the whole world. She is so beautiful and I think that only a mother of an anencephalic baby can truly love and appreciate a baby's perfectly round head. It is such a blessing to have a baby in our house again, my arms are once again filled. We still think of Gabriel every single day and our hearts still ache to hold him and coddle him and we often still break down and cry - there will always be a hole in my heart that only he can fill. I always show Isabela pictures of Gabriel and I hope that someday she will know what a very special big brother she has waiting to meet her in heaven.