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Title: Unto You This Night Author: Kerri Season/Category: Missing Scene from "Fallen."
Part Two of the Broken Dreams; Shattered Memories series. Season 7 Spoilers: Fallen, Cor-ai, Enemies, Threshold Pairing/Character: Teal'c/Daniel (friendship) Summary: Daniel revisits Teal'c with more questions. Rating: PG **Note: While the term Tec'ma-te originally was used in
the context of an honorable title, the show has shown us that it has various
meanings and possibly various spellings. Here, it is used as a term of honor,
not as a title or greeting. Disclaimer:
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story cannot be printed anywhere without the sole permission of the
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the above-mentioned establishments The
soft sound of footsteps easily drew Teal'c from his meditation. Slowly,
he opened his eyes, cocking his head slightly, as the footfalls came closer
and closer. Once, when he was able to kel'no'reem, such a minor distraction
would not have been a distraction at all.
Now, even the faintest of noises roused him from his concentration. "You may enter, DanielJackson." Teal'c
watched as his door opened slightly, before Daniel Jackson's head poked
through the narrow passage. "Am
I interrupting?" he asked guardedly, for the second time that night. "You
are not," Teal'c informed him, bowing his head as an offering of respect
to the man. "Please enter." The
other man nodded and carefully slipped into the room. Teal'c eyed him studiously, wondering why
his friend would feel compelled to use such caution. "I
couldn't sleep," Daniel Jackson said nervously, moving quietly through
the room until he reached Teal'c's spare chair. "And then, I saw your
light on…well, the lights…" His voice drifted as he stared at the
candles. "You mentioned
something before…" "Kel'no'reem." "Yes,
I'm sorry. What is that, anyway? Like some form of meditation?" "You
are correct," Teal'c stated. "Why can't you do it anymore?" Teal'c straightened his back, solidifying his posture. "As I stated earlier, once I started using tretonin, I have been unsuccessful in reaching kel'no'reem." His friend nodded, but still appeared confused. Had he not explained in the most simplest of terms? "And
you need all the candles for it?" "The
lighting provides the proper mood and tone for kel'no'reem." "But you can't kel'no'reem anymore?" "I
cannot." Teal'c frowned, realizing he was having difficulty in following
Daniel Jackson's reasoning. "So,
what are you going to do now?" "I
will continue to mediate to achieve a state close to kel'no'reem." "What
happens during kel'no'reem?" Teal'c
eyed him curiously, cocking his head slightly at the question. "For what purpose do you ask,
DanielJackson?" The
other man wrinkled his nose and pursed his lips. Teal'c interpreted his gesture to mean he was thinking, as he
had often done in the past. "I
don't know." He rubbed his nose
when Teal'c did not reply. "Well, I don't know, I just…I had some
strange images." Teal'c
regarded him thoughtfully. "Has
some of your memory returned, DanielJackson?" "No,
well, no." He shook his head.
"But I was dreaming. And I
saw…Well, I just get the impression you do this often. For important reasons." Teal'c nodded once. "Indeed. When I carried a symbiote, it was necessary for my continued survival." "I'm
sorry. Symbiote?" He
arched his eyebrow, surprised as his friend's gaze drifted to his abdomen.
"Do you not recall, DanielJackson?" Teal'c asked, watching his
friend patiently. Daniel
Jackson shook his head, his gaze still fixated on Teal'c. "No, just
images…" Teal'c frowned, noting the increase of discomfort in the man's face. "Would
it please you to discuss your dream, DanielJackson?" He
rubbed his hands together and started to nod, shifting nervously in his
chair. "Uh, yeah, if you don't mind." Teal'c
smiled softly. Any way he could assist his friend, he would. "I do
not," Teal'c informed him. "Okay,"
Daniel Jackson looked down and swallowed hard. "I-I woke up feeling like
I might have been in here before." "As
you were earlier this night," Teal'c stated. "Yeah.
No. I mean, before that." Teal'c nodded. "Do you have memory of events that transpired in this room?" Daniel Jackson shook his head. "No. Just a couple of images of you sitting there. Nothing specific." "You
frequented this room on many occasions." "I
did? Did it bother you?" Teal'c
smiled softly once again. "It did not." "What
did we used to do in here?" Teal'c
eyed him carefully. As much as he would enjoy stimulating his friend's
memory, he still believed the best course of action would be for Daniel
Jackson to remember by his own accord. "DanielJackson,
do you not believe it would be most beneficial for you to continue to wait
for your memory to return?" Teal'c stated firmly. His
friend sighed, resting his palm on the small table. "I don't want to
wait." He pursed his lips and gazed at Teal'c intently. "You already told me about Oma Desala
and Anubis. A little more information won't hurt." Teal'c
lifted his head and regarded Daniel Jackson thoughtfully. It appeared his
friend's need for knowledge had remained intact. "You
often came to this room to discuss matters of great importance," Teal'c
informed him, keeping his answers vague. "Oh…"
Teal'c watched with concern as the other man's voice drifted for a moment.
"Sort of what I am doing right now?" Teal'c
nodded once. "That is correct, DanielJackson." "I
had another dream," he said suddenly. Curious,
Teal'c cocked his head once again, and arched his eyebrow. "Please
continue." Daniel
Jackson fidgeted on the chair, as if he were uneasy, before readjusting his
gaze onto Teal'c. "It started off just as some feelings. Then I started
with images and more images." "Of
what did you dream?" He
seemed to hesitate. "This place.
Well, not 'this' place. Some other place. We were both there. I assume
it was some other planet, actually."
He made a face, shaking his head as he gestured with his fingers to
create long vertical lines in the air. "You had this paint…" Teal'c
stiffened, immediately recalling the time and place. "The
Cor-ai." "The
what?" "Cor-ai. It is similar to what you call a
trial." Daniel
Jackson frowned. "Why were you on trial?" His frown deepened, a
glaze coming over his eyes. "You've…What did you do?" Teal'c
frowned, feeling an unease overcome his body. Yet, he remained where he was, allowing his friend a moment to
gather himself. "You've
done…You've been trying to atone…" Daniel Jackson's voice trailed off as
the color began to drain from his cheeks. Then,
his eyes started to roll back into his head. Immediately,
Teal'c rose, striding quickly to the seat that held his friend.
"DanielJackson?
DanielJackson?" He placed a hand on his shoulder. The
man jerked at the touch, causing Teal'c to step away. "I'm okay,"
he said, bending over slightly to hold his head. "Sorry. Just a
headache." "Do
you require medical attention?" Teal'c asked, concerned. "No.
No. I'm fine." He shook his
head, closing his eyes. Teal'c watched him carefully, fearing his friend
might become unconscious. Daniel Jackson winced, squeezing his eyes shut. "Have
you been experiencing these headaches since your return?" Teal'c
questioned, not willing to allow the subject to be dropped. Daniel
Jackson nodded and winced again. "Yeah." "Perhaps
Doctor Fraiser—" "No,
it's fine. She's done what she can.
I'm fine." "Then
perhaps you are exerting more effort to recall your memories than your body
can manage," Teal'c offered. He
shrugged. "Doctor Frasier said something like that." "She
is usually correct in such matters." His
friend eyed him carefully, and for a moment, Teal'c thought he saw
recognition in the man's eyes.
However, whatever he had seen was gone before Teal'c could assess it
any further. "No,
really. I'm fine." He pressed his fingers to the bridge of his nose.
"Just…" He licked his lips. "Do
you have need of refreshment?" Teal'c turned away, careful not to knock
his candles, and retrieved a bottle of water. He handed Daniel Jackson the bottle, offering the water to his
friend gently. Perhaps
it had not been in Daniel Jackson's best interests to discuss his memories at
this time. "Thank
you," he answered, accepting the water and drinking slowly. Carefully,
he placed the bottle on the table. He did not speak for several minutes, but
it heartened Teal'c to see the color once
again returning to his face. "I
am feeling better. Thank you." "Are
you certain?" Daniel
Jackson nodded. "Yes, my head feels much clearer now." His
friend's eyes were no longer glassy, an observation that allowed Teal'c to
relax. "Then
I am pleased as well." The
other man smiled. "You’re a good person, Teal'c, no matter what you did
in your past." Startled,
Teal'c leaned closer to him. "Then you have memory…" "No."
He sighed. "No. I wish that I
did. Only a few flashes. But it's
mostly impressions. I have some
sensations." Daniel Jackson turned to face him, and there was a warmth
in his eyes that brought a sense of ease to the Jaffa's mind. "I feel
that you've done some things that have caused me pain, but I also feel that I
forgave you long ago for them." He swallowed hard. "I trust you." Teal'c
could not suppress the smile that came to his lips. These words were indeed
good words to hear. "It pleases
me to hear you say that, DanielJackson." He
smiled softly in return. "I
have pledged my allegiance to this world," Teal'c informed him.
"But I have also sworn to protect you and my friends here at the
SGC." "Thank
you," he said nodding. "I
get that impression." "I
can only regret that I was unable to save you. And I am unable to recall your memories for you," Teal'c
stated mournfully. "For this, I
ask your forgiveness." A
slight frown touched Daniel Jackson's lips. "You're sorry? For
this?" "That
is correct." "Teal'c,
you can't blame yourself for something like this." With a soft sigh, his
friend tapped the table with his fingers. "Look, I'm frustrated. I want to know why this happened. I want to understand why this Oma Desala
person did this or why I might have even done this. But it's not your fault.
I know it is not your fault." Teal'c
bowed graciously. His confession did
much to relieve the strain on his heart, but did not erase the burden
completely. Since the day he had sworn to protect Daniel Jackson, and to
honor his name, Teal'c had held the job with the utmost importance. He was to
blame for Sha're's kidnapping and death.
He was to blame for many of the situations where SG1 had been
compromised. And now, known to no one, he felt a weakness overcoming him from
use of the tretonin in place of his symbiote. How was he to continue to protect Daniel Jackson if he was not
as he once was? "I'm
sorry you can't kel'no'reem anymore," Daniel Jackson stated softly.
"I know that is was important to you.
But you are a strong person. You'll be alright." Teal'c
nodded. "As are you. I believe
your memories shall return in time." Of
this, Teal'c was certain. "I
hope so. I feel like they are just
there in front of me, waiting for me to grab them." "I
believe you have made more progress than you realize." He smiled gently
at his friend, recalling a troubled time in his own past when he had been
brainwashed by Apophis. It had been
through the strength of his friends, and the teachings of Bra'tac that had
helped him survive. "I am certain you will rise again." "Thanks
for the encouragement." He stood, rubbing his hands on his pants.
"I-I should let you go." He smiled warmly at Teal'c and paused at
the door. He turned, facing him, and
smiled again. "Thank you for
everything." "Your
presence is most welcome here," Teal'c stated, bowing. He
nodded, and began to slip back through the opening. "DanielJackson!" He
paused, poking his head through once more. "Yes?" Teal'c
straightened and clasped his hands behind his back. "If you require my
assistance in the future, you need not hesitate. Your presence is most
welcome here," he stated again. "Always." Another
smile crept over his friend's face, a smile that Teal'c knew was a rarity in
the man's past. Full, open, and peaceful. "Thank
you. Tek ma te, Teal'c." "Tek
ma—" Teal'c began to reply automatically. Then he froze, as the
realization dawned on him. Speechless, he watched as Daniel Jackson closed
the door behind him. After
a moment, a smile crept across the Jaffa's lips. Daniel Jackson's memory would indeed return. Of this, he was certain. Return to Part
One: Beyond Blue—Janet Click here for Part Three: Heroics—Jonas
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