The Beauty of Suffering

By

Rosasophia, IV°/PI

 

 

So what does suffering have to do with Thelema you may ask, “for he that sorroweth is not of us. After all, Thelema is about light, life, love and liberty, not suffering.  Suffering is part of the black schools.  Suffering is for those who do not know the law of liberty.  Yet do we not all know the ordeals that must be suffered through initiation?  Do we not have an inkling of what every great magician and mystic suffered to attain his wisdom and/or power?  Has not every initiate been warned of what awaits him should he decide to set foot upon the Path?  So why then does anyone choose to set foot upon that Path?  It is because we know that through those ordeals, through that suffering, we will emerge better than before. Each ordeal leaves us a little more changed than before; change is the nature of life. It is the process of transmutation. We know that in the end, if we succeed, our suffering will bring great joy.  And so we receive the ordeals and rejoice in life along the way pausing at each post to receive with equal joy the rewards inherent to our achievements. In Magick Without Tears Crowley writes:

 

There is another way of defining the Great Work that explains to us the whole manifestation of departing from perfection of “Nothing” towards the perfection of “everything” and one might consider this an advantage that is quite impossible to go wrong.  Every experience, whatever be its nature, is just another necessary bump. 

Naturally one cannot realize this until one becomes a Master of the Temple; consequently one is perpetually plunged into sorrow and despair.  There is, you see a great deal more to it than merely learning from one’s mistakes.  One can never be sure what is right and what is wrong, until one appreciates that “wrong” is really “right”.  Now then one gets rid of the idea of effort which is associated with “lust of result”.  All that one does is to exercise pleasantly and healthfully one’s energies.  (Crowley, 1999, p. 143-144)

 

Throughout the centuries man has sought to find reason and place for suffering.  Suffering has been dubbed the work of evil, of the devil, the consequence of ignorance, an illusion, the nature of life, the result of sin, and so on.  No matter what answer or rationale man has place on it, the need for a rationale is of central importance to all philosophies and religions.  At the heart of the quest for the meaning of life is really the question of the purpose of suffering.  If we never suffered, even a little, would we question so deeply the reason for living?  Would men dedicate lifetimes to the quest of finding meaning in the suffering of others or in their own suffering?

    Taoism teaches us to find beauty in all things.  It teaches us to look at a pile of dung and see it as beautiful.  Until one can truly do this enlightenment cannot be attained.  Most people in western society shudder at such notions.  In His first sermon to the five ascetics in the Deer Park near Varanasi, the Buddha spoke of the Four Noble Truths. The Four Noble Truths sum up the central teaching of the Buddha.

The Truth of Suffering.

The Truth of the Cause of Suffering.

The Truth of the End of Suffering.

The Truth of the Path leading to the End of Suffering.

Why should there be any less beauty in a photograph of a child dying than one of a child laughing in its mother's arms? Suffering is perhaps one of the few cross-cultural universals. Despite the differences in customs, traditions, language, literature, art, philosophy and ethics every society is subjected to the harsh reality that suffering exists. Sakyamuni Buddha (563-483 B.C.E.) realized this and declared the first Noble Truth of Buddhism to be that all life is Dukkha (suffering.) What is the Noble Truth about suffering? The Buddha would answer:

    "Birth, ageing, sickness, pain, sorrow, lamentation, grief, despair and death are suffering. Not getting what one desires and coming into contact with the undesired is suffering." (Rahula, 1990, 3)

 I recently told an acquaintance that I found beauty in suffering and in return received a tirade on how evil and pointless suffering was when there was so much more to life.  Certainly there is much more to life than suffering.  To acknowledge beauty in only suffering would be a bit lopsided.  The point is to embrace all of experience not one experience to the exclusion of others.  After some contemplation on why I found beauty in suffering I came to realize that it was partially in the notion of ennobling.  This notion is something strongly held by the ancient Greeks and by cultures like the Russian culture.  Dostoyevsky, one of my favorite authors writes quite eloquently about the ennobling aspects of beauty.

“…..suffering occupies a different place in the Russian soul than in ours. We regard it as a nuisance, an unfortunate byproduct of life in this world, whereas Russians seem to regard it as innately ennobling, a means of purifying the soul…. Dostoyevsky's characters suffer not only for themselves but for others: the housepainter Nikolai in Crime and Punishment, for example, confesses to a murder he did not commit as a means of redemption.”      

- “A Glimpse of Eastern Expanses”, Richard Smoly in Gnosis #13

The other notion I found I held came from the Ancient Greeks.  Similar to the concept of suffering as ennobling, we find the concept of suffering as tests of fate.  “What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger”.  Suffering makes us grow and become stronger. The classic tragedies tragedies adhere to a reality of suffering similar to the maxim upheld by the Buddhist monks of India, China, and Japan. In these plays we find the "awful theme that disasters and doom are brought upon men and women by the gods." (Noss, 1990, 58) Zeus condemned Prometheus, in Aeschylus' Prometheus Bound, to an eternity of suffering. Zeus commanded Hephaestus to "Nail him [Prometheus] to the rock; secure him on this towering summit, fast in the unyielding grip of adamantine chains." (Aeschylus, 1961, 20)    In Euripides' the Bacchae we find the horrible fate of Pentheus, doomed to a violent death by Dionysus. Pentheus' own mother grasped “his left arm between wrist and elbow, set her foot against his ribs, and tore his arm off by the shoulder. It was no strength of hers that did it, but the god [Bacchus] filled her, and made it easy. On the other side Ino was at him, tearing at his flesh; and now Autonoe joined them, and the whole maniacal horde.  A single and continuous yell arose - Pentheus Shrieking as long as life was left in him, the women howling in triumph. One of them carried off an arm, another a foot, the boot still laced on it. The ribs were stripped, clawed clean; and women's hands, thick red with blood, were tossing, catching, like a plaything, Pentheus' flesh. His body lies scattered under hard rocks or in the green woods. His poor head - his mother carries it, fixed on her thyrus-point." (Euripides, 1973, 233)

      In Euripides' Medea we find the tale of the Colchian witch Medea who "in the madness of jealousy . . . slew her three young sons with her own hand." (Moncrieff, 1994, 168) The imposement of suffering by the gods made it an inescapable reality.  No doubt the Ancient Greek would agree with the Buddha and say, "Indeed, to live is to suffer."

      “Few among the Ancient Greeks understood the reality of suffering better than the maenads of the Dionysiac cult. The sacramental communion engaged in by the priestesses of the Dionysia involved the ritual tearing asunder of a bull or a kid with their bare hands. This was done in an ecstatic frenzy and the flesh was eaten raw and they lapped the blood up directly from the veins of the kill. This tribute to Dionysus represented an indulgence into the suffering of life.” (Jellyfish, 2003)  Friedrich Nietzsche agreed with this viewpoint of the Ancient Greeks identifying the godhead of Dionysus with suffering. Moreover, Nietzsche even claimed that suffering is the only thing that is truly real. Hence, “Dionysus, the god of Dukkha, becomes inseparable from Brahman - the Hindu notion of the underlying reality out of which the universe is composed.” (Dead Jellyfish, 2003) The Hindus seek Mukti (liberation) from the physical world through absorption into Brahman where all individuality is lost. The artist is "no longer the artist, he has himself become a work of art; the productive power of the whole universe is now manifest is his transport, to the glorious satisfaction of the primordial One." (Nietzsche, 1956, 24)

“Nietzsche has invited us not only to acknowledge that suffering exists, but to identify with suffering and become one with it.  However to believe that only suffering exists would be crippling and we could accomplish nothing. It is as unbalanced a view as believing that everything is all light and joy, that life is a bed of roses and that suffering does not exist. Action is futile if it only to be met with disaster or suffering. No action of Oedipus could have saved him from his terrible fate.” (Dead Jellyfish, 2003) “The followers of Bromius have "looked deeply into the true nature of things, they have understood and   are now loath to act. They realize that no action of theirs can work any change in the eternal condition of things, and they regard the imputation as ludicrous or debasing that they should set right the time which is out of joint." (51) Yet indulgence in pure optimism is delusional.  Suffering is not alone.  It and exists in a relationship of symbiosis with bliss. Everything needs to be counterbalanced by its opposite - good needs evil, yin needs yang, and sufffering needs bliss.

A third factor I found that compelled me to find beauty in suffering is the fact that it inspires feelings of compassion and/or empathy and to feel compassion or empathy can be beautiful even though it is sad.  Tears and sadness felt in empathy in compassion for another or even for one self feels somehow beautiful to me.  It is the vice of kings because it is a beautiful vice. It is the feeling of this kind of sadness and compassion that inspires beautiful music such as “The Moonlight Sonata” or the paintings such as “The Young Martyr” by Paul Delaroche, a favorite of mine.  It is compassion and empathy that bring people closer together.  Without mutual understanding, without empathy no true bond between human beings can exist.  Granted this empathy needn’t be based in suffering.  Joy can be shared as well.  Balance is the key.  Life holds a wide gamut of emotions and experiences.  But have you ever noticed how much great joy feels like great sorrow?  Why do they both cause tears?  I can hardly tell the difference sometimes.  At the extreme of every emotion one meets its opposite.  And in great suffering there is great joy, and in great joy there is great suffering.

  Viktor Frankl (1984) learned how to accept suffering in life while in the Auschwitz and Dachau concentration camps:

 

If there is a meaning in life at all, then there must be a meaning in suffering.  Suffering is an ineradicable part of life, even as fate and death.  Without suffering and death human life cannot be complete.

     The way in which a man accepts his fate and all the suffering it entails, the way in which he takes up his cross, gives him ample opportunity--even under the most difficult circumstances--to add a deeper meaning to his life. . . .Here lies the chance for a man either to make use of or to forgo the opportunities of attaining the moral values that a difficult situation may afford him.  And this decides whether he is worthy of his sufferings or not.  (Frankl, 1984, 76)

 

Frankl explains in his book Man’s Search For Meaning that those who retained their dignity in the midst of such a bestial existence did so by making “a fundamental change” in their “attitude toward life” (85).  They had to learn for themselves and had “to teach the despairing men” this lesson:  it did not really matter what we expected from life, but rather what life expected from us” (85).  They had to stop asking about “the meaning of life” and, instead, think of themselves as “those who were being questioned by life--daily and hourly” (85).  Their answer came “not in talk and meditation, but in right action and in right conduct” (85).  “Life,” for Frankl, “ultimately meant taking the responsibility to find the right answer to its problems and to fulfill the tasks which it constantly sets for each individual” (85).

Frankl believed that for each of us, this “right answer” is not a collective one, but uniquely private.  It is what we have heard in speeches all our lives and have mostly ignored until discovered for ourselves as indeed we come to travel that road no one else can walk for us, wearing those shoes no one else can wear.  It is what we learn suiting up, one pants’ leg at a time, what we discover placing one foot in front of the other.  We are all crossing the valley of the shadow.

             Because the journey differs from person to person, and from moment to moment, Frankl said it is “impossible to define the meaning of life in a general way” (85):  “No man and no destiny can be compared with any other man or any other destiny.  No situation repeats itself, and each situation calls for a different response” (85).  Frankl saw “only one right answer to the problem posed by the situation at hand” (86).  Should the uniqueness of that situation be in its suffering, then suffering should “become a task” on which we do “not want to turn our backs” (86).  We must realize “its hidden opportunities for achievement” (86):  “When a man finds that it is his destiny to suffer, he will have to accept his suffering as his task; his single and unique task.  He will have to acknowledge the fact that even in suffering he is unique and alone in the universe.  No one can relieve him of his suffering or suffer in his place.  His unique opportunity lies in the way in which he bears his burden” (86). 

 

     In closing I leave you with the idea that as each of us pursues his or her path towards perfection, not to nothingness, but to everything we are going to be tested in every possible way by the powers of the universe. “Please observe that the further you get on, higher your potential, the greater is the tendency to leak, or even to break the containing vessel.  I can help you by warning you against setting up obstacles, real or imaginary, in your own path; which is what most people do,  It is almost laughable to think the Great Work consists merely of “letting her rip”; but Karma bumps you from one side of the toboggan slide to the other, until you “come into the straight”.  (Crowley, 1999, p. 142)  Every recess of our mind will come under scrutiny as we progress up the ladder of enlightenment and with every rung climbed the light becomes harsher; the suffering greater –more keenly felt.  Yet there comes a point when when become Masters of the Temple and become living embodiments of the verse “For pure Will, unasuagged of purpose, free from the lust of result is in every way perfect”.  The Buddhist knows the desire causes suffering.  Sartre knows that identification of our Self with a wrong image is suffering…ambition is suffering.  Being trapped within ourselves is suffering.  It is our natural state to expand to share with others.  Our suffering makes us human because it is what pushes us to strive towards our highest potential.  It is the initiator and the prod of the initiator.

 

 

      References:

 

 

Aeschylus. Promethus. 1961. Bound. London: Penguin Books Ltd.

 

             Dead Jellyfish, 2003. Pain & Suffering: The Role of Pain in Greek Tragedies. ChaosMagick Archives.

 Retrieved  Feb. 20, 2004, from http://www.chaosmagick.com/archives.

                                                                                                                                                                          

Crowley, Aleister.1999. Magick Without Tears. New Falcon Press: Tempe, Arizona.

 

Euripides. 1973. The Bacchae. London: Pengiun Books Ltd.

 

Frankl, Viktor. 1984.  Man’s Search For Meaning: An Introduction To Logotherapy. 3rd ed. New

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Montcliff, A. R. Hope. 1994. Classical Mythology. London: Studio Editions Ltd.

 

             Nietzsche, Friedrich. 1956. The Birth of Tragedy & the Genealogy of Morals. New York: Bantam Doubleday Dell Publishing Group, Inc.

 

              Noss, David S. 1994. A History of the World's Religions. New York: Macmillan College Publishing Company.

 

              Rahula, Yogavacara. 1990. The Way to Peace and Happiness. Taiwain: The Corporate Body of the Buddha Educational Foundation.

 

 

     

 

 

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