Welcome to the memorial page for the twins I lost to miscarriage on 29th September and 6th October 1996.  My due date would have been 6th April 1997.

There will always be a candle alight in memory of my twins.

These memorial pages are soo hard to write and a lot of pain, heartache and tears have gone into making them.  What you read here is how I feel so please respect that.  If you've lost a child to miscarriage, please be careful reading through these pages - I don't want to hurt you with what I say so please be careful!  :o)

Rainbows would never be rainbows
If sunshine had never met rain
No one would ever need comfort
If there was no sadness and pain
But life holds both sunshine and showers
The days aren't all bright and fair
So look through the showers for the rainbows
You'll always find hope shining there 


I've just had a wonderful reading from Abira and I've got her permission to post the reading here so that I've always got this to remember my twins by!  If you've lost a baby I definitely recommend getting a reading from Abira!!

Hi Mandy,
Thanks for your email!!!
Here is your reading....
The first thing I feel is the passion you have for your twins and I do feel them around you a lot. Also, I feel one is a boy and other is a girl ...they actually are around you a lot. The girl spirit seems more active to me. She floats around you a lot I see :)
I get a very strong feeling that they want to come back and they say that they had to leave because they were not totally ready and also you were not totally ready at that point of time. Their leaving helped you learn a lot of things. They want to thank you for the passion that you have for them. They both seem very playful to me. They want you to know that they love you very much.
They want you to know that although they are not with you in a physical body, they have this remarkable bond with you as if you truly are their mom. I keep hearing they will come back. Not sure, if they will be back as twins, but, they want to be back. It might not happen right away, but it will happen.
They want you to know that they are sorry for leaving you. But, they want you to know that they love you. They want you to be strong and know that things will change for good.
I see them very happy and playful on the other side and they have an older lady with them. It could be your grandma or great grandmother. I really feel the female child more strongly and she might come back. I think she was the dominant one and the stronger one among the two.
They want to thank you for keeping them in your prayers and also thank you for remembering them during any special occasions.
How cute..they say tell mom we love her :)
They are sending so much love for you and they want you to watch for flowers and rose petals coming your way :)
They want you to know that they still play with you a lot, whether you know it or not :)
I see them by your side even when you sleep. Not sure if you remember dreaming about them but, i do see them in your dream.
They don't want you to be sad or crying. They want you to know that they are always here when you remember them :)
They are showing me that you are very connected to the angelic realm and i see angels all around you and fairies too and they do want you to be close to the nature :)
Mandy, you have a great spirit and I love your energy. Please let me know if you needed to know anything else.
Take care,

The wonderful women at WOSIB helped me to remember my twins 12 years after my loss with a wonderful page and guestbook!