If Tomorrow Never Comes
Written by: FuuMegami
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters, their names, and or likenesses, I don't own any companies, bands, or show mentioned in this chapter.
Authors Note: I believe it is best to remind you that this will not be a love conquers all story, it will not have a happy ending, at least not the way most people would feel. Most will say it is an unfair and saddening ending. This and more is true. It is a very real story, and for some people it maybe too real. So now after reading this, you may continue at your own risk, and in the next few chapters I ask you to keep a tissue box handy. Thanks!
Three months later Fuu was getting chemo therapy regularly and became sick every time she had a treatment, in turn missing whole day of school. She wasn't losing much hair, though the color was fading and all her curls seemed to fall limp. And as her curls went limp so did her energy.
"Chemo and school are wearing you down, it's one or the other." Fuu's mother's words echoed in her mind.
So Fuu told Umi and Hikaru that her mother had decided to home school her so that she could quicken her education and start college earlier. Fuu meant no harm in this lie, she felt it best that they didn't know the whole truth. Because once they knew, they would worry, they would be sad, and they would look at her differently. She didn't want any of this, so she kept the truth to herself.
It was Saturday morning, about 10:30am. Ferio was over and the two were watching morning cartoons together.
"I still can't believe you haven't told them." Ferio said suddenly.
"Oh Ferio-chan. We've been over this before. I'm not going to die. Why have them worry and feel awful?" Fuu replied.
Ferio sighed. She was right though, she would beat this and move on, he could see it her eyes. Her body my have been breaking down, but oh was there hope in her eyes! Her spirit was as lively as ever, but had to settle for taking it easy.
Ferio took her hand. He ran his thumb over the back of her porcelain white hand. She had beautiful hands, the most beautiful he had ever seen. But they were covered with scars from the chemo injections and other needles.
"The girls should be here soon," Fuu reminded Ferio.
Ferio nodded reluctantly, he liked having his Fuu all to himself. He also worried that the girls would tire her out, not knowing she was ill.
"Are you sure you're up for it?" Ferio asked worriedly.
Fuu nodded and smiled. "Could you please go upstairs in my room and get my foundation? I need it to cover up these scars," she said as she looked down at her hands and frowned.
"Yes dear," Ferio replied playfully.
He returned moments later with her foundation and found her asleep already. It was breaking him down inside to see her so very warn out. He decided to let her sleep, and made it his job to make the tea for Fuu's tea party. Luckily tea was one of the few things he knew how to make.
When the door bell rang he answered and let both girls in.
"Where's Fuu-chan?!" Hikaru said as she bounded into the slightly dark hallway.
She was also dripping wet from the rain, water ran down the red rain coat she wore on onto the carpet. Umi was just as wet, though she also had on a hat with a small lake formed in the rim of her hat. Both girls took off their coats and handed them to Ferio who wondered wether he should throw them outside, put them in the bath tub, or put them in the kitchen sink.
"Fuu fell asleep o the couch. We were up late last night." Ferio half explained, sure, it had been late to Fuu. Yup 9:00pm was now late for his girl. "We were studying," Ferio added quickly.
"Studying sex-ed no doubt," Umi added with a smirk.
"Sex-ed was a very interesting subject." Hikaru said with a smile.
Ferio sweat dropped, "can we please drop the subject?"
Ubi nodded and held up a cake that was under a plastic dome. The cake was frosted white with a blue umbrella design on it. "I brought the cake!"
"I'll go wake Fuu-chan," Ferio said.
"Yaa!" Hikaru said as she jumped up and down.
Umi shook her head and went into Fuu's kitchen.
Ferio shook Fuu slightly and watched as her eyes opened revealing the green jewels that were her eyes. Ferio couldn't help but smile, he loved seeing her eyes open, it gave him such an indescribable feeling.
"Rise and shine, the girl's are here." Ferio said.
Fuu sat up and yawned, "thanks babe."
"I'll be in here if you need me," Ferio reminded her.
"Ok," she replied as she handed him the remote. She then walked out into the hall where she saw Umi and Hikaru's coats crumpled in a pial on the mat just inside the door. She laughed slightly and made her way into the kitchen.
As soon as she set foot in the kitchen Hikaru jumped on her and hugged her.
"Miss Hikaru, you are cutting off my circulation." Fuu said in a strained voice.
"Oh, sorry Fuu-chan!" Hikaru replied.
The girls all sat down at the table.
"So, Fuu-chan, where are you parents, and your sister, and better yet, why is Ferio here?" Umi said with a definite interest.
"Well, my parents are visiting my aunt who just had a baby. And Kuu is at her friend's dorm. So, my parents asked Ferio to stay with me, they worry about leaving me home alone." Fuu explained.
"So, you mean your parents are ok with you and Ferio, together, alone?" Hikaru questioned.
"Are you and Ferio getting... Physical?" Umi asked.
Fuu blushed. "No, Ferio and I have no plans on going that far. We're going to wait until were married."
"Really?" Umi said, sounding rather surprised.
"Yes, and I know we can wait cause we love each other that much." Fuu replied.
"I think if I was in your situation I would sleep with him in a heart beat." Umi said.
Fuu was shocked.
"I agree, everyone thinks of me as being too immature and young. I'm 16 too ya know, and this kind of thing that would set the records straight. Of course, I would have to be in love with the guy, don't get me wrong." Hikaru said, shocking both Umi and Fuu to speechlessness.
"You are silly not to take this hand fate has dealt you," Umi pressured Fuu.
Fuu shook her head. "It's not the right time. And if I wait, I know fate will reward me."
Umi smiled. "That's a nice dream, you're full of them."
"It may be all I have." Fuu replied. "My dreams are what I live for." She added.
Umi smiled. "You sound really tired though."
"School's been keeping me up late," Fuu replied lamely.
"Are you sure that's it?" Hikaru questioned, a look of worry and doubt came over her face.
"Oh! My father said to ask you if you'd like to sing for the children at he hospital. You don't have too. I wouldn't, they're little kids dying of cancer." Umi said as she made a face and shivered.
Fuu almost chocked on her cake. "Um, yes, um..." She didn't want to, she really didn't want to.
"It's ok Fuu-chan, you don't have to," Umi reminded her.
"No, no, I want to do it." Fuu replied slowly, she felt like this was something she had to do.
Umi smiled, "you have a big heart, and a strong will."
Fuu nodded. "Children are very dear to me. They're our future."
Umi giggled, "dreaming of children wit Ferio?"
Fuu shrugged. "Maybe some day. For now though I don't need to think about it." She made a face. "Or the dirty diapers."
Umi looked down at her blue watch and her eyes widened. "Wow, Fuu-chan, I have to go. I've got a fencing match."
"And I've got a date with Eagle." Hikaru added.
"Well, it was an absolute pleasure to have you over." Fuu said with a cheery smile.
"Later Fuu-chan!" Umi said as she stood up.
She and Hikaru left and Fuu sighed.
"You two just don't have time For me. Which is good, you don't miss me. And I'll be back soon."
Fuu then went into the living room and found Ferio sitting on the couch, S Club 7 on the Tv, and he was asleep. She turned off the TV and curled up on the couch with him. Her head on his lap. She entwined his fingers with Hers. And there she fell asleep with him.
At 3:00pm Ferio flipped through the channels and watched Fuu sleep. Feeling content seeing the rise and fall of her chest. He had moved her to her bed and now sat at the end of her bed. Her soft breathing was like music to his ears.
She had only been getting treatment for three months, and still no change with the tumor. But she was obviously breaking down.
He caressed her hair, he felt so helpless. He couldn't cure her. And he couldn't get ride of her weakness. So, he did the only thing he knew how to do, he stood by her.
As long as they were together, nothing else mattered. That night Ferio didn't leave Fuu's bed. He slept by her and held her close. She seamed to be having a rather awful night, sometimes sniffing or murmuring in her sleep.
It was in this state that Fuu's parents found them. But by the pale look on Fuu's sleeping face and the worry on Ferio's, they knew the nature of the situation. They didn't question why, or what, they trusted both teens.
The next day Fuu awoke in Ferio's arms, he was snoring slightly due to his sleeping position.
Kuu poked her head in at the sleeping couple. "They're so perfect together. There's no way they will ever be separated."
Ferio finally began to stir and hour later. "I have to go to the bath room," he explained.
"Well don't do it in my bed, get you're but in the bath room," Fuu replied.
Ferio laughed. "Yes Ma'am." He gave her a good morning hug and then left For a much needed bathroom break.
Fuu then took out a clean sheet of light green stationary. She began her first letter to Brittany.
I hope you are well, though I am sure you are a bit bored. I know I get bored often even though I am home.
I hope to return to the hospital to sing again soon. Do you have a song you wish to hear me sing? If you do please tell me.
Today I'm going to the mall with my friends. I'll buy you something since you can't come with me.
Take care and write back soon!
Fuu finished the letter and sealed it in an envelop. She'd mail it on their way to the mall.
Ferio came in the room again, still a bit sleep and in need of a shave. "I'm gonna go home and shower, shave, and then I'll come back and drop you off at the mall before work. I already asked your sister Kuu to pick you up. You just give her a call whenever you need to go home. And I'm really sorry I can't be the one to pick you up. But I have to work else we won't have any money to get a place of our own some day."
Fuu laughed. "Oh Ferio-chan, you needn't give up your life For me. Really. And hey, you need to get away from me for some of the time."
Ferio nodded, "It's hard though."
Fuu shook her head. "I'm not going any where, I promise. I will always be here, and I will always wait for you."
Ferio climbed into bed with Fuu. He cupped her face between his hands, he looked into her sparkling emerald eyes. Then he kissed her lovingly, and passionately.
Afterwards Fuu blushed. "I... I don't know what to say."
"I love you," Ferio replied.
Fuu giggled. "I love you too Ferio-chan."
"See you in a little while." Ferio said.