We again tried to conceive a baby and it took a long while (at least for me). Finally in May of 2000 I again saw two line on the "pee" stick. Again we were so thrilled. Finally a baby. I decided to really take it easy. No lifting ANYTHING!! Eating very healthy, taking my prenatals and getting plenty of rest. 8 weeks into the pregnancy I again started to spot. WHY is this happening?????? I had two perfectly healthy boys and now this, again!!! I went in for another US and found out that I had a blighted pregnancy. I went home and waited. Waited again for another birth. On July 25,2000 I went in to go to the bathroom and I felt something drop into the toilet. I looked and there was a very small sac and the US was right ... NO baby. I flushed it down the toilet as there was no baby there. This was one of my easiest births, not much bleeding (just like a period), no contractions etc. Again, I mourn a third loss. Even thou there was not a physical baby, you still mourn the loss, the loss of all your hopes and dreams and what the future would of held for that child. When is this going to end??? My heart can't take any more. All my dream lost again. |
