Moroni(same spirit, second body)
Christmas was very hard as I just lost my little boy. David was having a hard time getting work as he was working for a guy who did excavating and where we live it snows in the winter. Financially we were having a hard time so we decided that David would go to Colorado and work for a guy who was just starting a business and needed a Die Maker to set up shop. It was to pay really well. He was going to stay there for 3 months yet ended up staying for 7. He left in January and I thought "great the Bishop told us to try again as Moroni wants to come back again yet David is going to be three states away. How is this going to work?" He left and I went on a Juice fast for 47 days to get my body clean. I decided in April to go down and visit him. I planned it to be around the time I was to ovulate. (Smart thinking, huh?) Well mother nature had other plans. When I got there I was still having my period. I was only going to be there for 5 days. David had an abscess tooth and was in pain. What a time we were to have. Well I ended my period 4 days before I was to leave. David was so sick and in pain that we only "baby danced" once, the night before I left. I went back home thinking this was a "no go" and I will have to wait 3 more months before we try again. Two weeks later I noticed that I was late. I decided to take a home pregnancy test knowing that it would be negative. When I looked at the test and saw two blue lines, I was shocked!! I was Pregnant!! Talk about thrilled. My pregnancies were always good. No sickness etc. I was so nervous yet once I reached 14 weeks I started to rest and enjoy my pregnancy. Then all of a sudden when I was 16 weeks I noticed when I wiped that there was brown blood again. NOT AGAIN!!!, I screamed inside of me as I sat on the toilet and cried. My time was over mourning right now as I walked out of the bathroom to care for my children. I again, called two Elders in my Ward and asked for a blessing. This time it mentioned that all will be well with me and that I will be able to raise this child. OK I am thinking, it did not mention if it was to be this life or the next life. Earlier that Morning I called David and told him the bad news. After the Elders left , David called and I told him that every thing was fine as I felt ok. That evening I started having Contractions. I tried laying down to see if they were going to go away. They didn't . I thought " So, this is what it is like to have contractions , as with my first two boys I was induced". I got things ready in the bathroom as I knew what to expect this time. I had one child already in bed and my then 6 year old step-daughter and my 2 year old son were still up. I was hoping that I would not deliver until all were in bed and asleep yet that is not what was meant to happen. It was July 24, 1999 at 6:00pm when I delivered. Again, I felt the gush of blood and went in the bathroom. I decided to push this time over a large bowel on the floor (easier than the toilet). The baby was half way out , still in the sack yet a piece of the sac was still attached to the uterus wall. I kept on pushing and trying to help it out. This lasted for about 1/2 an hour. I kept on praying that Heavenly Father would help me as I had two young kids in the living room who needed me. Finally it came out. I left the baby on a towel , sac and all and started to get cleaned up. I was getting weak as I was still bleeding so I had my daughter make me some orange juice (her first time at this). I drank that and was passing more clots. I started massaging my uterus so that it would clamp down. Finally I felt pretty good and got the towels in the washer and put the kids to bed. I then went in and opened up the sac. The amnio fluid was brown. It was a tiny boy. This was Moroni again, just another body, I knew it in my heart. He again looked perfect. He was a brownish, gray color. I figured that he died a week before I delivered him. The cord was very thin. Something was wrong , what could it be?? David called and asked what I was doing. I told him I just gave birth to his son. At first he didn't believe me. As I was talking to him I started getting very weak and knew I was going to pass out as I couldn't even hold the phone to my ear. I told David I had to go and hung up. (I am sure he was going crazy not knowing what was happening ). I then decided to sit on the toilet (as this is what happened with the first miscarriage) and push. I passed a huge clot and as soon as I did I felt great (physically). I held Moroni in my palm and tried to take a picture of him (came out blurry). I then put him in a plastic container and put him in the freezer as I did not want to bury him without David seeing him. David came home 3 months later and we buried him next to his first body. I felt so honored that I was the only one who carried him, felt him move and held him in my hand. He didn't know anyone else, only his momma. What a special boy I had. Trying so hard to come down to our family not once but twice and still didn't make it. He is a very special spirit. |
