Re-Confirmation
You found me one daysitting with my head in my hands,
my soul sobbing
and my heart as heavy
as the fear of death.
I had been searching, yearning,
reaching for something I had no idea of.
There were no tears,
no complaints or judgments,
merely questions that had to have answers
in order for me to survive.
Sometimes walking,
sometimes at a dead run,
I entered the dense woods.
I wandered, with no particular direction,
in and out the trees
hoping there would be signs,
clues to what I needed in my life.
I heard nothing except sweet music
in the birds' songs,
I heard no names whispered on the winds,
and saw no pattern to the falling
of the leaves.
It was always so cold, so very bitter cold.
Winter was settling with a finality
that terrified me.
I was so lost, and desperate to find my way;
so very frightened of being caught there
when darkness finally stopped threatening
and actually fell.
I couldn't go on any longer,
there was no energy left to my soul,
and I sat, leaning against a huge weeping willow
that I identified strongly with.
My head in my hands and
my spirit pouring itself upon the ground. . .
I felt a tap on my shoulder
from that old Willow.
I lifted my face up to its branches
and like a strong and gentle hand
they caressed my cheeks,
filling me with a feeling
I couldn't identify
but didn't want to ever let go of.
There was so much warmth,
and such a feeling of lightness - -
Oh! It's Peace!
That realization brought the tears
that had been kept for many, many years
and when I had let go of everything
that I had kept hidden
I knew that there was finally an end
to all my searching.
That wonderful old Willow
had opened my eyes
and I could see the Forest at last. . .
I didn't need to search all those years,
You were beside me the whole time;
all I had to do was reach out for you.
Because I had been blinded by all
the fear and insecurity,
I couldn't see that.
When I finally admitted that
I just couldn't do it alone anymore
You reached out for me.
You took my hand and have been
with me, in me, ever since.
I turned my life and soul over to you then
and now, I reaffirm my vow to you.
In all honesty, for so many different reasons,
I would not be alive in any way
if not for your presence.
Saying Thank-You could never be enough.
Hey-O Great Spirit.
Written by Kate Lickey (ThunderWolf)
Copyright © October 20, 1992 to present
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