Oh Great Spirithelp me through this...
"I'm actually, finally, crying
for myself,
for what you did to me
when I was your child --
I haven't been your child
since then.
Oh, I did love you, I think;
you were my daddy,
and you're supposed to trust
your daddy, right?
I haven't trusted you
since then.
What a beautiful child I was,
awkward on the outside maybe
but loving, wondering and alivea
on the inside --
I haven't been beautiful
since then
(or alive).
You took that beauty,
that innocent and adoring beauty
of the child that was yours
and you twisted it,
you used it and abused it
to serve your own sick purpose.
You took your madness,
your abuse
and made it mine -
It's my abuse no longer.
I will not take responsibility
for what you did to your baby.
You did it,
you took my body and my soul
and you ate it alive
like the demon you are --
I am the monster no longer.
I am actually, finally, sobbing
for the little girl
lost so very long ago.
And I hate you even more!"
Oh please, Great Spirit,
just help me through this...
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