... words to live by
start at the
bottom if you want to read
this in chronological order
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
||Somehow I totally screwed this page up when I moved it onto
my new PC. I'm frustrated with Yahoo, so I'm trying a new blog site.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
||Wow, Kitten really started a debacle here in our community.
She & this other neighbor cat can't seem to get along. So every week
or so, he chases her home and they both hiss & yowl.
Today, another neighbor (heretofore known as Duck Lady for reasons
which will become obvious) witnessed yet another catfight. Of
course Kitten is a little ninja girl, so she was inside a hedge, while her
Arch Nemesis was standing outside of it like a sore thumb (or a bright gold
cat), looking very guilty. Duck Lady yelled at Arch Nemesis until he
ran home. He's a very sweet cat when he isn't around Kitten.
Then she started in on me, telling me all kinds of horrible things would
happen to Kitten because he is a Serial Stalker! Apparently she's
caught him pouncing at her pet wild ducks. I know my little girl, and
although I was concerned for her, I knew she was fine because she's a ninja
like that. :)
I kind of brushed off Duck Lady while we both looked for Kitten,
who of course vaporized the second Arch Nemesis had his attention
I left to run errands knowing (& hoping) that Kitten would be
waiting for me when I got home, which she was. Yay!! I checked
her out and she was fine aside from needing lots of hugs. I went over
to Duck Lady's house to apologize for being snippy with her, thank her for
caring about the well-being of Kitten, and to let her know that Kitten was
fine. On my way, I got intercepted by Joe (Arch Nemesis' owner). He’s all
kinds of furious at Duck Lady for calling him at work to bitch about his
cat. Apparently, she made him drive 30 miles back to put the cat inside.
Duck Lady is a little overzealous about animals but means well. She has 1 or
2 housecats of her own that never see the cruel, scary outside world. Joe
was practically spitting, he’s so mad. He’s ready to sue her and feed
bread to the ducks. Hehe, he actually threatened that. They’re on some
special duck food diet apparently. He said if he were 10 years younger, he
would … and then trailed off … mumbled something about prison, then said not
that he’s ever been in prison before. He’s kind of a rough-edged guy but not
really that scary. Plus, he has a point. The neighborhood yentas do seem to
go out of their way to harass him.
Anyway, he tells me that some other neighbor guy complained about a brown
cat carting off a mouse AND mousetrap from his yard. He swears it wasn't his
cat, so I went over to the direction he pointed. I knock on their door. No
answer. Then, I hear Joe yell “Sweetheart”. He’s forgotten my name already.
It’s been 3 minutes. He says maybe it’s actually the house next door.
So I go next door to knock and secretly congratulate myself on being so
brave today. This tiny little woman answers. Hehe, okay she’s probably my
size but shorter. I ask if she lives there cuz Joe specifically mentioned a
man. She says yes, and I felt dumb at this point. So I started the story
about the mouse & mousetrap, wondering now if Joe misremembered it. She says
she’s an animal lover and would never kill anything. It turns out she & her
son have been feeding Kitten cuz they thought she was a stray lol. They
apparently love her (who wouldn’t?) and even gave her milk this morning. I
wonder if that was before or after the fight.
I thanked her for being nice to Kitten and asked her to talk to her neighbor
if she gets a chance, if only to let him know Kitten isn’t a stray. Fuck, I
guess I should keep buying collars, even though she's lost 5 or 6 by now.
At some point, I was able to talk to Duck Lady's husband to ask him to let
his wife know that Kitten is fine. I tried very hard to keep this from
escalating into some dumb neighborhood drama that shows up on the news.
I know most of you are wishing for the news because it would be funny if it
weren't my neighborhood and my cat, but I ask that you think peaceful
thoughts for Kitten. The last thing she needs is to have Animal
Control coming around.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
||We had to take my car to the shop near Jamaica-hill.
Instead of one of us having to sit there for 3 hours, I suggested we take
two cars and go explore the new IKEA.
Galahad was getting over a flu-type virus, so I offered to let him stay
home, but he insisted on staying with the plan. I have one word to
describe that IKEA experience. Wow! It was set up as Disney for
adults. There were at least 20 people just outside directing traffic
and telling us where to park. Then, we were greeted at the door with a
smile and a map. Holy shit, that place is HUGE! Of course, me
being me, we needed to go straight to the restaurant. It had been two
hours since breakfast, and I was starving.
ordered gravlax, and he
got the Swedish meatballs with
sauce. Omg, so yummy! With full bellies, it was off to browse
and kill some time before my car was ready.
Being the organized person I
am, I left my cell number with the shop in case of emergencies arising.
However, I completely underestimated Swedish planning since it seems they
built that store like a bunker. No cell phone signal to be had
anywhere in the giant store. I didn't realize this for a couple of
hours though as we were completely engrossed in the whole experience.
We ended up spending over $200 on little things, and enjoyed the experience
immensely. I ran half a mile to get outside for a cell signal and
found that everything was copacetic. Those Jamaicans are awesome!
Once we picked up the car, we made a quick stop to get some beef patties
& coco bread. Mmmmm.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
||For the past few weeks, Kitten has been fighting with a
neighbor cat and getting chased home.
She's been so depressed and barely wanting to go outside. Today,
finally, she seemed upbeat and wanted to stay out longer. I'm not sure
where the neighbor cat is, but maybe he's giving her space now that we
chased him away with water pistols. Yes, I feel like a jerk cuz he's a
very sweet cat, but Kitten has a right to feel territorial at least in her
own yard. Yesterday, there were 2 raccoons battling it out (or maybe
playing) next door, so I made her come inside while they were still awake.
When I tried to get pictures, I scared them away somehow, so she was able to
go outside for an hour or so.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
||We drove with Galahad's parents up to Daytona Beach to visit
with friends of theirs for Thanksgiving. They have a gorgeous Old
Florida house on the Intracoastal. This was the first time since I
can't remember when that I haven't spent the holiday with my family, too.
Galahad's dad has Alzheimer's and is not doing so great, so it was nice to
spend some time with him while we can. I had forgotten exactly how
much that wears on my patience when one encounters it for days at a time.
It definitely is easier to cope this time than it was watching my mom go
through it, but it still sucks pretty bad.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
||Don't laugh, but we decided to try a Nascar race today.
Okay laugh away. We did.
We must have made a hundred
Talladega Nights jokes.
Galahad had a friend who was going so we went along for the experience.
Wow, talk about culture shock. We certainly walked into the Deep South
when we entered the
Speedway. It's definitely not as boring as watching it on TV even
though they really are just driving in circles. It's not Formula One,
but it was fun to experience.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
||Today was a trip back to normal folk in Pennsylvania.
No South Florida fakeness. No Big City Chill. Of course we
started the day off in a cute little coffee shop that had egg and cheese
bagel sammiches! From there we wandered through a little craft fair
and bought some soy candles amongst much laughing and horsing around.
Then, it was off to the Tea House for 2nd breakfast.
Mostly, it was a relaxing day of lounging about and nibbling on Di Palo's
Saturday, October 13, 2007
||We flew up to NYC yesterday to see a friend and to see the
sights. On my list of where I wanted to go was
Apparently quite a few other people had the same idea as it was much more
crowded than last time (7 years ago or so
We also journeyed across the street to
the chocolate place.
This was definitely turning into an eating vacation.
From there, we ventured to Little Italy and
Omg yum! We tasted so many different meats & cheeses, bought a bunch
for our trip to Pennsylvania, and started to head out. We ended up
walking for miles today, but the memorable parts were the meals.
Friday, September 7, 2007
||Galahad took apart the bathroom cabinet last night after the
rat failed to get stuck in the trap we set the night before. Turns out
it was still very much alive and hiding back in a corner that we couldn't
get to. He set the trap again last night, and it fell for it.
Yick! But at least we won't have the smell of a dead animal in the
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
||Kitten was tricksy today. She meowed to come back
inside, and I thought she was missing me again, so I let her in without
first checking to see what she had. Turns out she had an almost dead
baby rat. Ewwwww. I spent 20 minutes yelling at her and chasing
that fkn thing around until she finally lost it in the bathroom inside a
cabinet that somehow had a baby rat sized hole in it. Oh yeah, and she
lost her new red collar today, too. They seem to have a two week
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
||Kitten was sooooo happy to see us last night -- although I
think I missed her as much as she missed us. She hasn't let me out of
her sight for more than 3 seconds since we came home. After that, she
starts pitifully mewing. Even though she hadn't been outside while we
were gone, she didn't want to stay out today either. She came back
every 5 minutes, and finally gave up after the 6th time or so.
Monday, September 3, 2007
||Time to fly home and see Kitten!!
One of my brothers missed his early morning flight because they said he got
there too close to the flight time, even though the airport was deserted and
he could see the stairs still attached to his plane. I blame Cheney
again. Fortunately, Galahad stayed to drop him off and was there to
bring him back to our condo until the later flight.
Most of us left today and were sharing the same connecting flights.
My niece's plane to Dallas got diverted to Denver for not enough fuel before
they even boarded! Again, I blame Cheney. His transport plane
took off right before us. Besides that, the flight home was
uneventful, although I ended up going through the rest of my Imitrex supply
-- 9 total for this reunion trip.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
||Somehow, I let my family dysfunction (and the 3 day
migraine) get to me. I succumbed to my horrible Inner Child. I
lost my temper with my brother today and fkn kicked him. Like I was a
6 year old. I was so ashamed immediately after I did that. I
went off on my own for a bit to try to cool down, and popped another Imitrex
(number 7 I think for this trip). I came back after a mile or so hike
and apologized to him. Fortunately, he still loves me and forgave me.
Later on, we took the chair lift up the mountain to ride the
Slide back down. My sister and I were all proud of ourselves for
conquering our fears (& migraines) to ride this down. Of course two of
my brothers decide to race. I bet that the younger one would win.
Everyone else said the other would since he's bigger, and his weight would
give him the advantage. But I know that crazy always wins! And,
sure enough, he won by a comfortable lead even after wiping out on the way
Saturday, September 1, 2007
||I've been dealing with a migraine and can't seem to shake
it. Other than that, I'm having a wonderful time. Today, we went
to town and then saw the rodeo at
night. One of my sisters tells me I've been to a rodeo before at age
14, but somehow I don't remember it. This one was fun.
Friday, August, 31, 2007
||What a clusterfuck yesterday was. Everyone's planes
were all messed up, and my dad missed his connection, thereby spending the
night in Atlanta since it was the last one of the night. I felt
completely guilty that I wasn't able to persuade them to hold our plane
another 15 minutes for him. It was all touch & go for about 90
minutes. They said he would make it, then not, then he would, etc.
His plane got diverted to Knoxville since Atlanta had to close for storms,
and they started running out of gas whilst circling. I suppose the
good news is that they noticed they were low on fuel before they crashed.
Apparently the VP flew in to Jackson, Wyoming last night, and the airport
was completely locked down. That's why they wouldn't let us come in
too late since a curfew was in effect.
It's wonderful seeing everyone!
A bunch of us decided to go to the
Grand Tetons to
hike. This worked out well as I was able to spend some time chatting
with a few people here & there along the trail as we got strung along.
We would catch up with each other at moose sightings. And then there
was the Great River Crossing. One of my brothers decided to cross it
on a fallen log 15 feet above the white water & slippery rocks. That
prompted Galahad to cross the slippery rocks and then rock climb up the
other side. Which prompted my next brother to cross on the fallen log,
My 9 year old niece was begging her mom to do that, too, but alas, she had
to cross on the lower log downstream in the calm section. Of course at some point, it started to
This led my 15 year old nephew to ask me which way he should cross it.
Since it was a "TestFest" as my sister so aptly called it, I took his
request seriously and told him that the bigger challenge was to cross the
slippery rocks and rock-climb up the other side. He's very big into
martial arts, so I thought following his martial-arts-uncle's path was
apropos also. Galahad was very good about coaching him across, telling
him where to place his feet, and what to hold onto. It was somewhat
amusing to see other tourists gathering around on the other side (the trail
eventually winds that way) asking if this was a rescue mission. He did
make it successfully with no serious injuries, just some wet feet and
At the top of the mountain, I couldn't take it anymore and called my
neighbor to see how Kitten was.
was fine but lonely.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
||We left today to go to my family reunion, of which I have
mixed feelings. On the one hand, I'm excited to see everyone; on the
other hand, my family doesn't always do well when we're all together.
There are one or two instigators, and then eventually most of us fall back
into childhood dysfunctional behavior, which I detest (especially when I do
Plus, I'm going to miss Kitten like crazy!!!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
||Kitten got a new pretty collar yesterday.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
||We had such a great time at the beach today. There
were all kinds of rip currents and waves crashing. After our morning
workout, we went frolicking in the waves. I was in about 20 seconds
before I came out to put my surf shorts back on over my bikini. After
I lost my hair tie, I decided a t-shirt was in order as well. Those
waves were ripping clothes off with a vengeance. I was
holding on to Galahad's hand for dear life at times. The times that I
didn't I got sent back to shore ass over elbows. Mostly, we were all
laughing so hard that we were ingesting copious amounts of seawater.
Two of our friends saw a small shark go by, but I was still eating so I
missed it. Probably for the best.
When I got home and showered, I was pulling chunks of seaweed out of my
hair. It was almost the exact same color and blended in nicely.
Monday, August 13, 2007
||I learned an interesting fact yesterday whilst helping our
friends move. They're both very pro-environment and work outdoors with
native plants. Anyway, I was lamenting about ants infesting Kitten's
food this weekend. She told me that if we had red ants in our house,
that was a good sign as it meant that we didn't have termites.
Apparently red ants tear up termite nests. Good to know! Now, we
just have to deal with the ant problem. For now, Kitten's food is
sitting in a moat.
I have 3 bites on one finger. I don't blame them as I was drowning
hordes of them.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
||Today we did our usual Sunday morning beach workout &
subsequent picnic. Then we had just enough time to get home, shower,
grab a snack, cool off for 30 minutes, and it was off to help some dojo
friends move. They're great people who recently got married and are
consolidating households. So even though it was brutally hot in the
middle of a south Florida August afternoon, we went to help them move
without complaint. That turned into a 5 hour chore, but I made sure to
put myself on food detail, so I got fish tacos out of the deal.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
||We tried to pressure wash our roof again this weekend.
Last weekend, the pressure washer wouldn't start. So I called my
brother (who moved to Arizona, the fkr), and had him on speaker phone to
figure out the engine. He determined last weekend that the engine had
flooded (after much troubleshooting), so he said let it sit for a bit and to
call him before we tried starting it again. So we called him, woke him
up (sorry!), and he got it started. He's a genius with engines.
Seven hours later, Galahad the perfectionist finished the roof.
At that point, he was too exhausted to go out as we had planned, thankfully
as I was beat, too. I was on ground detail. I had to throw
bottles of water up to him periodically, check the fuel level, and move the
200 pound machine around so the hose would reach various spots on the roof.
Obviously my job wasn't as tricky, but it still wore me out. Plus I
Friday, August 10, 2007
||This is what I need:
Thursday, August 9, 2007
||Well, the collar didn't last long, exactly 2 weeks.
Kitten came home today without it. Aren't I curious what happened??
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
||After much deliberation & vacillation, I finally decided to
get Kitten her rabies booster shot, even though I was mostly sure it was
(except for legal compliance). She fought me getting into her carrier,
yowled on the way there, and then sat patiently with me for 30 minutes while
we waited to see the Doc. He pulled her out roughly after I warned him
that she wasn't pleased to be shoved in the carrier (which is what I finally
had to do). She yowled and hissed at him. He weighed her,
injected her, and shoved her back in within 90 seconds. And, I was
done since I had insisted that she would be getting no other booster shots.
What a racket.
Once we got home, she bolted out of her carrier, and then
proceeded to come back and play in it for the next half hour.
Fortunately, she was fine all night. No reactions, no
symptoms, which leads me to believe even more strongly how unnecessary this
Saturday, August 4, 2007
||Wow, she's a machine. Two baby iguanas in quick
succession this morning while we were all outside cleaning our roof.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
||She's becoming acclimated to wearing her collar when she
goes out but has figured out how to keep hunting with it. Another blue
Thursday, July 26, 2007
||I bought Kitten her very first collar today (with a pretty
little bell on it) since she decided to hunt blue jays this morning.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
||Today is Kitten's one year anniversary! Yay! How
did I ever live life without her? She's the bestest!!
Friday, July 20, 2007
||We went to see Harry Potter last night since Galahad was out
of town when I first saw it. And apparently, our theater had some
special deal on buying tequila, so he got very relaxed.
The movie was just as good the second time. Tonight, if I have the
energy after workout class and a full day, I may go to a Harry Potter Book
Party. My friend is going at 11 pm and asked me to meet her there.
When did I get old thinking that's too late to go out? I remember when
I used to start getting ready at 11 pm ...
Thursday, July 19, 2007
||Yay, I figured it out! Push in, twist, then pull it out.
July 17, 2007
||I outsmarted myself.
Now the Quick Disconnect connects quickly, but it definitely does not
disconnect easily. Sigh.
Monday, July 16, 2007
||I might be stubborn. Okay, I am; but that which does
not kill me shall make me stronger, right? Holy fuck, this may kill
me. I've had a migraine on & off (mostly on) for a week now.
They're coming on more frequently and lasting longer, although in hindsight,
I'm still fortunate that the severity isn't as intense as it used to be.
Here's where the stubbornness comes in. I refuse to go crawling back
to my chiropractor every fkn week to adjust my neck. Can't it stay
On a positive note, I had a lovely weekend in between bouts
of pain. I had sushi with my in-laws (I love them so much!), watched
the new Harry Potter movie
with my Shihan followed by Thai food, lounged by the pool, and read my book.
Before I could enjoy my pool time, I had to clean it first, and the
Polaris pool-scrubber thingamajig had been making me crazy for weeks now.
It's so hard for me to unscrew the Quick Disconnect (ha!) in order to clean
the filter. I'd always have to wait for Galahad to get home to do it
for me or open all the valves for an hour to let the pressure out.
Today, I finally had enough and gave myself an Idiot Lecture. As I was
standing in the pool to try and unsuccessfully connect it back (more
leverage from inside the pool or so I thought), I had a little light bulb go
off (figuratively thankfully so I wasn't electrocuted). I decided that
Google had never let me down before, and why hadn't I bothered to Google
this problem yet. In the past, Google has helped me figure out how to
un-jam the coin holder in my car and how to change the special a/c filters
among other things. I jumped out of the pool, and before I had dried
off, I had my answer. Not only was it simple and easy to do, it worked
I bow down before the almighty Google. Now, if only it could help
me open the jar of mixed nuts that I'm jonesing for. I tried all of
the methods I knew plus some that I Googled. I suppose I need to keep
working out. Sigh, Galahad needs to hurry up and come home.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
||Is it odd that old people go to the library to use the
computers there and then use them to play solitaire or is that just me?
Monday, June 25, 2007
Cocaine Cowboys yesterday. I wasn't prepared for how much old
trauma that re-surfaced in me. On the one hand, it was a very good
documentary. On the other hand, I couldn't believe my parents kept our
family there and pretended it wasn't that bad.
Monday, May 28, 2007
||Our last day here and we had to catch a plane in the
afternoon. We tried to get up & get going early, but that just wasn't
;) We were able to spend an hour or so at the
Arizona-Sonora Desert Museum and
got to see the desert cats. Very cool! And then it was off to
the airport and another mad dash through Dallas airport for both my sis and
me. This time, we made it with 10 minutes or so to spare.
And there was my Galahad waiting to pick me up at midnight at the airport.
And, omg did I miss my Kitten! Apparently she missed me, too, as she
gave me lots of snuggles when I got home.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
||Again, I was awake way too early. This time I was
quieter in the kitchen, although my sis woke up soon after with a migraine.
This was one of the few times I actually got to take care of
someone else's migraine. I did all the same stuff that I want -- an
ice pack that I'm too lazy (READ: the pain isn't worth the result) to get
for myself, hand-delivered meds, and a glass of water. She was so
grateful even though it really isn't any effort for someone who feels okay.
We had planned to go hiking today but told her it was fine if we didn't.
She didn't want to be the person who holds everyone back, and I know that
feeling well. So, we went but took it extremely easy. My brother
didn't get to drive fast through all the swerving mountain roads. He
survived although his new diesel truck almost didn't. Apparently we
all learned that diesels have a sweet spot of fuel efficiency, and we
weren't in it. But that's later...
We stopped at one of the
trailheads to try hiking. I figured the fresh air might help my sis.
Haha, here I though I'm in the best shape of my life, and I could barely
make it 100 feet up the trail. The altitude almost killed me since I
live at 3 feet and this was close to 9000. My leg muscles never got
sore, but omg, I couldn't catch my breath. Needless to say, I was
happy to stop and rest and just enjoy the beauty. We talked for a bit
and munched some beef jerky, and she encouraged us to go hiking and she'd
wait for us. Neither my bro nor I wanted to leave her, so we just
ambled a little bit (which was about as fast as I could go anyway without
oxygen). And, she's stubborn so she pushed herself a bit to keep up.
The fresh air (and meds) did help a bit. We maybe only ended up a
quarter mile up the trail before we turned around, but some of that was over
45 degrees steep.
We continued to the top of
Mt. Lemmon to get a
bite at the little town. At that point, my brother realized that his
truck burned through way more diesel than it should have and we were in
danger of running out. When I say little town, I mean one store and
one cafe (which was closed, the fkrs), and no gas station. So, we
tried to coast down, without going too fast so my sis and I wouldn't get
carsick lol. It was a harrowing ride down watching the Distance to
Empty gauge count down until it just read out Lo Fuel. We barely made
it to the gas station and were happy when they had diesel there and we could
Saturday, May 26, 2007
||We stayed up sooo late talking when we got back to his
house. And we met his new doggie, Bella, who is fkn adorable.
She's a Sicilian Mastiff
and the most adorable one ever! So, of course her aunties had to spoil
her and play with all of her toys.
really glad she turned out well as I was the one who talked him into getting
her. She was a rescue puppy that he learned about just when his
Tibetan Mastiff died. He had just moved across the country and wasn't
sure he was ready for a new dog. Once he showed me her picture, I knew
she needed him almost as much as he needed her.
I woke up early cuz I was still on EDT, so I had about 3-4 hours of
sleep. I tried to be quiet while everyone else was sleeping, but my
quest for food woke up my sis. She mumbled something barely
intelligible like "you'd better be making coffee," so I started a pot for
We all sat around most of the morning catching up and chatting (and
playing with Bella!). By the time we decided we wanted to do
something, half the day was gone, so we spent an hour or so at the
Botanical Gardens before they
closed. Then it was off to Trader
Joe's to get some food. We don't have those in Florida, so it was
a treat for both my brother and me, although now that he lives there, I'm
sure he'll be there often. My sis cooked us up some yummy, healthy
food back at his house, and again we stayed up all night talking.
Friday, May 25, 2007
||My connecting flight to Dallas was 90 minutes late.
Fortunately, we made up time in the air, so I had a leisurely 15 minutes to
catch my next flight. Unfortunately, we burned up that 15 minutes
sitting within 10 feet of the gate. Well, I needed the exercise since
I was missing my Friday night class at the dojo.
I texted my sister, who was also connecting to that flight, that she needed
to hold the plane cuz I was running for it! The airlines told me they
wouldn't hold it and since it was the last flight of the night, I might get
stuck in Dallas the whole sold-out holiday weekend. Cheerful
pessimists they were.
I knew how my sister is and I knew I'm in pretty good shape with a damn nice
wheeled carry-on. It never tipped! Thanks, my friend, for
letting me borrow it and thanks also to
Delsey for designing it. So I ran like a spider monkey hopped up
on Mountain Dew. Of course my next gate was in a completely different
My sister is a smart cookie and started chatting to anyone who would
listen; and somehow she got lots of people caring if her little sister whom
she hadn't seen in 2 years would make the plane. Laugh, she was
the last person in line to board and yelled my name when she saw me running.
I came tearing over, and the flight attendant was very nonplussed. He
made some comment to my sis like why'd you make a federal case out of this.
Of course, when I actually walked onto the plane behind my sis, almost
everyone cheered to see I had made it. And, because she's an amazing
sister, she had snacks ready for me!!
I had assumed I would have 90 minutes in Dallas to grab a a
bite to eat.
She called my brother from our seats to let him know I had made the
plane, and he picked us up with a huge smile at the Tucson airport.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
||I'm going to feel so much better when I see Kitten eating a
baby iguana. I knew they were a menace, but I had no idea how bad they
had become in some neighborhoods.
Tuesday. May 22. 2007
||I tried to go see
Spiderman 3 this weekend,
but fate decided otherwise. A few of us met up for dinner before the
movie, and during dinner one friend started having intense abdominal pain.
It got so bad that she insisted we take her to the hospital. Since she
isn't even close to being a hypochondriac, we got our food to go, refunded
the movie tickets, and sped over to the closest hospital. While we
waited in the ER, we met this group of kids who had rushed over after a pool
accident. They were all still in their wet swimsuits and mismatched
clothes. One girl had a giant gash on her chin. They were
chatting amongst themselves and soon we joined in and made her laugh.
Others in the waiting room started feeling more comfortable and joined the
conversation, too. It was a nice tension release. In the back of
my mind, I wondered if anyone there was waiting for awful news on a loved
one. I hoped that we helped distract them if even temporarily.
she got settled in her room (who knew ERs had private rooms?), we joined her
and tried to keep her spirits up. I know all too well what it's like
to be in so much pain, you need to vomit. Poor girl. I held her
hair while she threw up. We quickly persuaded the nurses to up her
painkillers instead of waiting to see if what they gave her worked.
Pretty soon, we were having a party in her room. We had us plus a few
staff members laughing away at dumb jokes and her ratty socks.
She told me later that she went home and threw her socks away.
Somehow no one cared that her underwear was brand new. We just teased
her about her socks. The P.A. told me that she had never seen someone
in that much pain laugh before. Welcome to my world. Laughter
doesn't make the pain go away, but it helps to distract for a split second
here & there.
In hindsight I bet they were glad they gave us a room instead of one of
the curtained-off areas because of how loud we were. I absentmindedly
wondered if our laughter helped anyone else or offended them because of the
gravity of their loved one's condition. We played around with all of
the gadgets and supplies in the room and asked the nurse where the bar was
in the hospital. Haha, she was great and said in her locker!
Anyway, my friend finally passed her stone and was medicated enough to be
released. I'm sure we'll talk about & remember this night far better
than if we had gone to see Spiderman. Sigh. But I still want to
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
||These are fabulous!
Running alarm clocks!
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Monday, April 16, 2007
||Know what I hate? That I can't reserve airline tickets
anymore for 24 hours. Fuck you, Delta! And, I also hate that the
price is the same every single day until the day I'm ready to purchase them.
Fuck you, Delta! And, checking a seating map indicates that there are
plenty of available seats so there really isn't a reason to raise the price
$200. Fuck you, Delta! Turns out Continental is $30 more than
the original price, so I may fly them. Fuck you, Delta!
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
||My head is finally better!! Halle-fkn-lujah!
Oh, and Kitten finally
caught & ate Mr. Lizard.
Monday, March 26, 2007
||FFS, it's time to whine again. I don't think I've met
my quota this month. Guess what? Yup, you were right. I
have another un-ending migraine. I even threw a PityParty, but the
clowns didn't help this time. Somewhere in this awful month, I turned
38. Happy fucking birthday to me. It might be time to search out
and count my blessings. It definitely is Imitrex time again.
Friday, March 2, 2007
||Yay, my neighbor is moving out. He's actually not that
bad usually, but he has his moments of passing out with his stereo blasting
in the wee hours of the night. I've had to go over there and pound on
his door with my shoe for over 15 minutes to wake him. At first I
thought he was dead. I am nervous about who might buy it though.
I hope they won't be worse....
Thursday, March 1, 2007
||So, umm.... happy new year?
Yeah, it's been a while. I haven't felt much like sharing or coming
out from my Hall of Solitude. Today's a new day and all that.
I've had a migraine for a few days now, actually over a week although I had
a day off in the middle so I suppose it doesn't count. It's not even a
particularly bad one. It's just been days, and I'm starting to lose my
grasp on sanity. Last night, I decided I was gonna go on a bender and
get drunk and pass out. I grabbed Galahad's bottle of Vodka and
retreated into my library. I sat on the couch and drank straight from
the bottle. Twice. Omg, that stuff is vile. How do people
get drunk? I staggered back downstairs and put the bottle back.
That didn't exactly help my head as you might imagine. Plus, at that
point I didn't want to mix Imitrex with that, so I made myself wait a few
hours to take a dose. To keep myself busy, I threw myself a Prodigious
Pity Party -- clowns and all!
Kitten finally did her kitten job and came
to snuggle. That helped put a smile on my face. So anyway, today
I look like a mongoloid. Thank goodness for creative eyelinering.
By the way, don't you hate when you get 9 million free address labels in
the mail. Who even sends mail anymore and needs to use them? I
especially hate when it's from an environmental charity --- although most
charities are on my shit-list lately.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
||My little huntress has been busy this week. Monday she
brought home a baby rat, which she ate like a black man attacking BBQ ribs,
licking every little drop off her paws. Tuesday, she came back with a
full-size rat, but decided not to eat it. So, I had the dubious honor
of picking it up (ewwwwwwwwwwwww) and moving it to the backyard where the
vultures could eat it. When did we get rats again? Two years
ago, they made a lengthy appearance after the multitude of hurricanes
displaced so many, but I hadn't seen any in over a year. And
yesterday, she caught a baby iguana. I was sure she wouldn't eat that
after she was done toying with it, but omg, she devoured it except for that
last little polite bite she left behind, which happened to be bright
fluorescent pink. Who knew?
I wonder what today will bring...
Monday, October 16, 2006
||Ugh, it's spaying time for
a nervous wreck. I'm taking her to my brother's vet instead of mine.
Mine wanted to keep her overnight unsupervised. Fuck that. So,
now she will have a new vet, who comes highly recommended. I get to
pick her up tomorrow afternoon when she's done. I'm hoping that she
won't ever need to go to the vet again after this. My brother said he
got both of his dogs spayed there, and the Doc is excellent.
To take my mind off of it, I've been researching political candidates for
November's election. Haha, I am so voting 3rd party on
everything I can. Fuck all of the corrupt lying 2-party bastards.
I love some of the gubernatorial choices:
John Wayne Smith &
And omg at Clay Shaw & Ron Klein smearing each other. That equals a
vote for neither but rather a vote for
Neil Evangelista. I haven't worked my way down to all of the
ridiculous amendments yet.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Friday, September 1, 2006
||Okay, so I'm a slacker. Tell me something I don't
know. I've been so distracted with Kitten (yes that's her name, think
Father Knows Best) that I haven't felt like doing much else, including
writing here. So, yeah, we kept her.
it's a she as I found out when I Googled and learned that virtually all
are female because of their gene structure. The vet confirmed it, and
omg I hate him. He gave her so many shots, and then she got all sick
and hated me. She's been there twice now, and I wasn't even sure I was
going to do vaccinations at all because of the controversy. But since
I let her out every day, I figured rabies might be important, and worms, and
feline leukemia, etc. I hope I'm done for now, and I don't
intend to do boosters. But she will need to be spayed at some point.
I did get all health conscious and buy her
plus all natural, perfectly blended raw
food for my carnivorous kitten. Omg, she loves that! And, it
doesn't smell all nasty like normal wet cat food. The down side is
that it's not cheap, but she's worth it. I did save a bundle of money
on cat toys though. She loves her tennis ball, her bottle caps, and
plays soccer with those bottle caps until she loses them. By then,
I've usually finished another bottle of Kefir,
so she gets another one.
She's met so many of my neighbors. They all think she's a stray and
try to feed her cuz she's so skinny (like owner like kitty I guess).
Plus, I haven't put a collar on her and probably won't. I asked about
micro-chipping her and heard about some huge controversy of 3 different
technologies and politics and blah blah blah, so I haven't done that either.
She's very quick, smart, and knows her way home. She grew up on the
mean streets, so she's fairly savvy on staying alive. Anyway, they all
know where she lives now and haven't given me too much shit about letting
her outside. Who knew that was another whole controversy? Almost
everyone has tried talking me out of that, but she loves it.
She's so darn needy for attention; she's sleeping on my lap as I type
this. She always comes home crying and needing snuggles.
did I ever survive without my Kitten??
Sunday, July 23, 2006
||I think we officially have a kitty now, although I'm trying
to prepare myself in case he goes back to his feral roots and disappears one
day. He's so tiny, maybe about 4 weeks old. He even might be a
she. I have no idea. I'm so cat-ignorant. I started
calling him Bones cuz he was so skinny & malnourished, but Galahad isn't
fond of that name. Mostly I just call him Kitty anyway. We
stopped at Petco after workout class this morning and bought some Science
Diet kitty food since I heard that's the best. I tried not to get too
crazy buying him toys & dishes since I'm still not sure he's gonna work out
and stay with us. By the way, when I said he was cute, I meant in an
ugly way. He has a hyena head, long cheetah legs, is the color of
dirt, and is just sooo fkn cute. He did finally stop yowling after
about 8 hours.
he's stealth kitty, so we've been calling him Ninja Kitty.
My brother came
over to help us fix our roof tiles (damage from the hurricane 9 months ago),
and he's quite the dog person. Laugh, this kitty just adored him.
She/he climbed all over him, nibbling & pouncing & purring until she fell
asleep on him.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
||Galahad went outside to go to work and discovered a
half-starved feral kitty outside crying. He came back in, got some
sardines, and fed him, with instructions to me to feed him again in 3 hours
in the same spot in case he came back.
I promptly threw those instructions
out the window when I saw how cute & hungry he was. I kept feeding him
a bite at a time, moving the tray closer & closer to our front door.
Two hours later, and he was still yowling away and licking up every drop of
sardines right on our front porch. I let him inside the house for a
bit, but he seemed traumatized, so I let him back out. Plus, I wasn't
sure how Galahad would react when he came home.
A big thunderstorm rolled in, and I tried to get him to hide out on the
porch with me, but he bolted. Three hours later, I was missing him
like crazy. I couldn't find him anywhere. I kept checking back
in the original spot every half hour. Finally, there he was! I
called Galahad and asked him to pick up some food at his mom's house on the
way home since he was stopping there anyway. Kitty still wasn't
letting me anywhere near him. I tried feeding him some rice milk, and
that's when he just lunged himself on me and tried to snuggle for hours.
Of course I brought him inside, and he sat on my lap (purring & yowling)
while I worked on the computer. When Galahad came home, he saw him on
my lap and kind of rolled his eyes at me. But then I noticed that he
had stopped at the store and bought him special food. So, who's the
bigger sucker now?
Thursday, July 13, 2006
||We've either had too much rain here or someone is fucking
with me. I just fished a dead
crawfish out of my pool
filter. Or maybe he's a
some type of crustacean.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
||Ugh, I had to go to Miami yesterday. I always forget
how much it's like a foreign country until I get there and can't understand
anyone. My TV at the hotel was programmed in Spanish. With the
stress of Miami traffic, a trying day at a customer site, and a tropical
wave brewing, it had all the makings of a migraine.
Tuesday, July 4, 2006
||I had such a fabulous weekend! Where do I even start?
Oh yeah, Happy Independence Day!!! I wonder if our founding fathers
would be proud or shocked or both at what we've become.
My close friend
came to visit, whom I hadn't seen in far too long. Man, I love her and
miss her so much. We laughed and reminisced and laughed and cried.
Her kid is absolutely adorable! We went to
Lion Country Safari, workout
class at the beach (where we built sandcastles afterwards), and just did a
whole lot of nothing. I took the day off yesterday so we could do more
of the same. She's having a rough time adjusting to single parenthood,
and her father was just in a very serious accident, so she's stressed to the
max. It was nice to have our biggest stressor be what to eat next.
Hehe, although when we were at my brother's house, that can be very
Another brother came over & taught her son how to make paper airplanes.
Laugh, we littered his house with so many.
It did reaffirm to me though that as much as I love her kid and enjoyed
him, I'm glad I don't have any. I just don't have the energy to keep
up. It's quite exhausting. But omg he's so fkn cute! He's
a lil' genius at 5 and knows all about rockets & planes. And, he has
such a sunny disposition.
Friday, June 30, 2006
||I just helped my Shihan register at
ETS to take his
TOEFL test. Man, what an ordeal. They have a horridly slow
website. I ended up having to call to verify my order, which kind of
defeats the purpose of online transactions. That helped distract
me temporarily from the week I'm having. I've had a migraine for days
now, with no end in sight.
||It was cloudy today, so I decided to move a six foot mango
tree that was too close to the house. I was in the middle of a good
book, have movies I checked out from the library, but somehow I was in the
mood for hard labor. Holy shit, I had no idea how hard it would be.
I have blisters on my blisters now. I even have a blister on my fkn
elbow. How is that even possible? At one point I had a wasp
buzzing near me, and I yelled at it, "I have a shovel and I have no idea how
to use it!" I'm sure he was shaking in his little yellow jacket.
Anyway, the tree has been replanted in the far back, kinda near Bertram.
Hmm, I guess he needs a name now, too. However, I don't know if he'll
live since I am completely ignorant & klutzy in replanting trees.
Galahad has been working 6 days a week, so I figured, fuck it, how tricksy
can it be. This little seedling started in a clay pot and grew right
through the bottom and rooted itself a few feet down. I ended up
smashing the pot and broke one of the roots. Plus, he's kinda leaning
all crazy-like. Hmmm, I need a crazy-like name. Maybe
GG Allin? Or is
that too crazy?
It probably doesn't bode well for him to be named that, but we shall see.
He was still standing after my shower, so I'm thrilled!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
||I had quite an entertaining time at the dentist this
morning. Yeah, I know. Never thought I'd say that.
:p They called me this morning to say that my
appointment this week (which was made months ago) needed to be rescheduled.
Of course, they're booked solid for the next month. I said fine, it's
not an emergency and nothing to be stressed about. They called back 30
minutes later to ask if I could come in in an hour at lunch. I crammed
the last slice of cold leftover pizza in my mouth and raced out the door.
When I walked in, there was quite a hullabaloo in the waiting room.
Some woman (I'm always the youngest patient by 30 years or so) was ranting
up a storm at the check-in window. I caught the eye of the hygienist,
mouthed my name, and she snuck me in behind the angry lady. I started
laughing as I sat in my chair. Then, the woman burst through the door
down the hall into the room where the dentist was working. She started
insisting that she needed to be seen immediately. She wouldn't shut up
and ranted about how she hated everything in Florida.
As if that weren't entertaining enough, another lady came in after her
cussing her out and following her down the hall. She was pissed off
that this BITCH as she kept calling her was cutting into her time.
Laugh, it took her about 3 minutes to make it down the hall with her walker.
She cussed the whole way until she caught up to her and then called her a
BITCH to her face. Holy shit I was almost crying. This kept up
the whole time I was there. The staff threatened to call the police.
She said that the Trump didn't work like this. And how uncivilized
Florida is. Laugh. We're in the middle of fkn suburbia.
I'd like to take her to the Everglades and show her uncivilized.
Actually, I'd like to take her to the airport and tell her to never come
back to Florida again.
During one of the quieter moments, the hygienist commented on how
comfortable my shoes look. I get more fkn comments on these shoes from
both men & women. It's always the same exact comment, too. I
keep wondering if it's code for "Holy shit those are ugly!" I was
wearing my Columbia mocs. They're gray-ish and nothing special to look
at. I think it's kind of funny when women comment on them. Most
women are so wrapped up in fashion and looking good that when they see a
decent shoe that doesn't torture feet, they freak out. Maybe it's cuz
I refuse to conform to fashion. I need my feet to be comfy. How
they look is secondary. Maybe they're really commenting on my bravery
to shun convention and feel good instead. Whatever I have to tell
myself to live another day as Wendy.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Thursday, May 25, 2006
||My fkn doctor wouldn't refill my fkn Imitrex prescription.
It turns out I hadn't been there in 5 years. So what? I've been
healthy. Anyway, I had an appointment today to check in and say "Hi,
I'm still alive." Thirty minutes later they hadn't even acknowledged
my presence. Sigh. Meanwhile, I see the drug reps start to pile
in. Grrrr. They finally take me back and check my vital signs.
The nurse goofed on me cuz she said I weighed what her kids weigh. I
didn't ask how old. She kept remarking that I hadn't been in for
years. I kept answering back, but I'm healthy. They hate that
She moved me into a room across from some guy with gout. Ewwww.
I don't really know what that is. Hello Google. So you don't
have to Google (since no one alive knows what gout is), here it is:
Gout is a
systemic disease (i.e., condition that occurs throughout the body) caused by
the buildup of uric acid in the joints. He was a 38 yr old
man who hurt his arm at a retreat in NY. Yes, I heard his whole story.
I think there may be a HIPAA
violation or three going on there. Anyway, now he has some weird staff
infection. Ewwww. By the way, I tried to hold my breath the
whole time I was there but 55 minutes is a looong time. And,
apparently there's a new antibiotic-resistant staff infection out called
Merca. I was informed of this as a needle was being stuck in my arm.
Gah, I hope she washed her hands with soap.
I had assumed I would say hi to the doc and get rushed out, but he was
very thorough (listened to my lungs and everything). Laugh, he shut
my exam room door so my history was private. He reviewed where I
was 5 years ago health-wise. Again, I had to explain I've been
healthy. Because I'm a woman of a certain age, it's mammogram time.
I refused that on x-ray grounds, so I acquiesced to the blood work so as not
to be perceived as difficult. Yeah, yeah, I know I have rights, but
I've been fired from doctors before so it's just easier to play along and
get my refills for another 5 years. Plus, he gave me samples of other
ones. I had to take back some of my unkind thoughts about the
pharmaceutical reps for the 2 minutes he was handing me those (Maxalt,
Frova). Overall, he's a good guy
and I have my refill. He did say I needed to get annual checkups.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
||I saw my first curly-tail lizard in our yard. Sigh.
I tried to run out and drown it in the pool, but the fkr was too fast for
me. Normally, I adore lizards in my yard. In fact it pains me
when we kitty-sit, and kitty kills one. But these guys are the
linebackers of exotic, invasive lizards. They aren't delicate and
beautiful, and they drive out the cute ones.
Curly tail lizard:
Cute lizard that's shedding:
Thursday, May 18, 2006
||This is gonna sound silly, but I'm all proud of myself.
First of all, I finally stopped procrastinating and bought a new office
chair. My old one squeaked pretty badly. Anyway, it was
delivered today, and I assembled it all by myself!! Yay!! My
fingers are numb and cut (well some of that is from cleaning the pool for
hours yesterday & today), but my chair is solid and comfy. I almost
gave up a few times, but I kept telling myself I could do it. I had to
get creative because it's too heavy for me to maneuver exactly according to
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
||It turns out that one email to the President of Comcast gets
much quicker and painless results than 5 phone calls to Comcast Support.
The cable guy is here now with all kinds of tools fixing it (shovels,
spools, etc.). He looks cranky, although I don't blame him. He
was late to get here because his previous job turned out to be much worse
than expected. I did offer him a tasty beverage and then stayed out of
his way (instead of hovering). I think this job is turning out to be
much worse than expected also. I will follow up my bitchy email with a
complimentary one. That is, if my cable TV ever works again.
Laugh, my email to the Pres of course went into the 4 month delay to
properly fix my cable after Hurricane Wilma.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
||I feel very fortunate that I was able to celebrate Mother's
Day with Galahad's mom. We bought her a laptop and set it up
wirelessly for her. Man, I hate fkn wireless. It all works fine
until you try to add in security. It randomly disconnects her and
finds her neighbor's network, which wouldn't be so bad except it's a weak
signal and doesn't have Internet. She's a new user, so it's quite the
challenge trying to walk her through repairing a wireless connection.
Meanwhile she has a NETGEAR card and a NETGEAR router (saved as the default
connection) but it keeps going to that Linksys network.
And mine is awful.
My laptop fought so much between wired & wireless if I switched back & forth
that I finally stopped switching and just left it wireless (after spending
hours & rebooting into safe mode to fix it). However, that causes
random weird lag so I've gone back to wired for the time being. Gah I
hate this shit.
Anyway, I had a very lovely time there, although it saddens me to see his
dad falling further into the decline of Alzheimer's. I was able to
tell him I loved him and that it was good to visit with him. He got
teary-eyed and said he loved me, too.
Saturday, May 6, 2006
Random live webcams
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006
||I'm trying to get out of my reclusive stage of life so I
forced myself to go out tonight. Galahad & I and some friends went to
some local club where we all agreed the DJ did a terrible job of
mixing. But, we all managed to have fun.
Saturday, April 15, 2006
||I had a mostly uneventful trip last week except for a
certain unnamed Marriott hotel that couldn't seem to get me hot showers in
the morning. That sucked. A lot.
Saturday, April 8, 2006
Wednesday, April 5, 2006
||I invited a friend over last night (to cheer her & myself
up) to watch the
of Narnia. We ordered a pizza and ate it off my
grandparents' china. Maybe they'd be happy I was using it.
The movie was good, but I got sleepy cuz it was so long, and we started
Operation Not Axing Myself continued today with a visit to Pablo to
do my hair. I got the lecture that it had been too long since the last
time and then spent almost 3 hours and gobs of money (and he wonders why it
takes me so long between visits) changing my hair into something fun.
I now have strawberry & chocolate highlights. Yay! I had an
embarrassing moment when the woman went to wash the dye out of my hair and
saw the ear seed thingies I had. She started scrubbing and then
realized they were not dye and actually there on purpose. Since she
didn't speak much English, I decided not to go into a long explanation of
what they were. We both just nervously laughed and that was that.
In case you're curious why I have things stuck to my ears, they are tiny
beads that are taped to pressure points to supposedly help my migraines.
Tuesday, April 4, 2006
||One Touch Easy Setup my ass! I finally broke down and
bought a wireless router yesterday because they're cheap and I didn't have
any other excuses except that it looks complicated. But everyone
assured me it's easy as pie (like I know how to make pie). Their 80
year old grandmother could do it, etc. Plugging it all in was easy.
Making it secure (which it won't try to do by default) sucks. So yeah,
it's easy if you want to leave your network open. I spent hours
figuring out wtf to set up a password. I tried Live Chat with their
technical help. He gave me a wizard that would do it for me but only
at 64 bit encryption. Fine, I didn't care anymore even though that low
of encryption is years old technology.
I run the wizard. It does something with the router. I try
the client side on my laptop and it errors out. Sigh. Of course
the software won't work on a Mac, but I can manually copy/paste some long
encryption key from a text file, etc. I just want to be
able to enter a password and go. Why is this so hard? I decided
not to go back to Live Chat. I ask around about WEP vs. WPA vs. all of
the other ones. WPA doesn't appear as an option on the Mac.
Sigh. My laptop is fighting between the Windows wireless configuration
utility and IBM's. Everyone says use IBM. I disable
Windows, and still no luck. I go back to the Mac and monkey around a
bit (even though I am about 5% proficient with a Mac). I find where I
can make it WPA & WPA2. Yay! Can't find WPA2 on my Windows XP
I eventually get the Mac connected. Yay! I update the drivers
on my laptop, try reinstalling, etc. Finally, I use the Windows
utility and it finds it. And now that it does, so does IBM.
Fkrs. All of 'em. So, now I've kept out all of the amateurs but
I'm sure my network is still unsecured for professionals, but I kind of
don't care anymore.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
||I might be a big fat dork (or extra skinny one as the case
may be). I was reading that there may or may not be a risk of too much
Vitamin C supplementation in the body causing kidney stones. (My
brother went through that, and I've heard horrible awful things about kidney
stones so I was anxious to avoid them.) Even though I've been on
semi-high doses of C for over a year and been fine, I decided to cut back to
1000 mg from 3000 mg. Big mistake. Add to that my overall
depression and my body decided to revolt yesterday. I don't know if
suddenly I caught a bug, got food poisoning, or just willed myself to
self-detonate. I got so sick, chills, uncontrolled crying, upset
stomach, fever, etc. I haven't eaten much in the last 24 hours (READ:
2 bowls of oatmeal) and have lost about 3 pounds. I'm just guessing
since I don't own a scale.
I also noticed a new spot on my chest which is
making me think about calling my dermatologist. I'm sure 2 days of
lowered C wouldn't be enough to let a skin cancer grow like that (well
almost sure), but it makes me wonder. I'm so sick of all of this.
The C was making me feel good about it all and feel healthy. Now, it
scares me because there are
conflicting reports of its safety. Nothing like being one's own
Saturday, March 25, 2006
||Tried to do an old-fashioned beach day today. Now I
remember why I don't do this much anymore. It was a
gorgeous day, low 70s and not a cloud in the sky. I put on sunblock,
packed snacks and went with a few friends to the beach. I had
sufficient water to stay hydrated and blankets on which to lie.
However, we had no umbrella. And the rental ones can be used only
where they're clustered. Sigh. And, because of parking issues,
we all came in one car. So after an hour or two, I was all sunned out
and ready to leave but couldn't. I moved into the shade nearby and
started to get chewed on by
I literally had hundreds on my shirtsleeves. So then I moved even
farther away onto the pavement where the old people congregate.
Meanwhile, all of my friends were in the water having fun.
I was reading a magazine but couldn't concentrate and really started to
feel like a left out freak. Here I was at the beach on one of the most
perfect days of the year, fighting back tears and hiding under my Gilligan
hat. I ate my snacks, drank my water, and read my magazine.
Finally, they were ready to go and were making plans for dinner & movies,
etc. I was so over hanging out by then but somehow felt like I
couldn't say no. Hate that. We all went to our respective homes
to shower & change. I of course grabbed a small snack to tide me over.
In hindsight, I should have grabbed a real meal. It turns out girls
take forever to get ready, and I was way beyond hungry by then and onto a
full-blown migraine. So, I ended up saying no to the rest of the night
and spent a quiet night by myself on meds.
They all said I should have told them I needed to leave, but I didn't
want to ruin their fun. In retrospect, I should have because they were
burnt pretty bad. When did I become such a sissy girl? How much
of a loser am I that I got lonely in the middle of all that humanity and
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
||I love rocking out in my car while driving. It's like
my own personal nightclub.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Thursday, March 2, 2006
||I tried Tai Chi again this past Sunday but at the beach this
time. Much better! Everything is nicer on the early morning
beach, well that is until the driving rains came in.
Some fellow beach-goers stared at us and one brave soul even tried to follow
along. Bless his heart, it's fkn complicated. And, we've only
learned (and I use that word loosely) the first 12 or so movements.
the Tai Chi, we started our normal workout stuff, punching sand, pushups,
sit-ups, etc. Somehow I fucked up my shoulder hanging from a beam and
doing leg lifts. I'm not sure how or why since I've done it before
without injury. Anyway, I lost 75% strength in my right arm which made
eating breakfast a challenge. (It was technically Tweensies since I
had eaten breakfast before Tai Chi.) At the time, I assumed it
was muscle fatigue but it didn't seem to get better after an hour.
The next morning my shoulder was much better but my neck was all
fuxx0red, so I paid an emergency visit to my chiropractor who laughed at me
for being a dumbass while torturing my every pressure point. Then, I
underwent an hour-long massage session with the nice lady with the mean
hands. Holy Shit, that hurt! So, here I am a few days later and
feeling about the same as I did three days ago. Sigh. If this is
part of getting older, I want no part of it. I shouldn't be this
goddamn delicate. FFS, I hurt my neck sleeping from what I can tell.
That's just plain wrong.
On a completely unrelated note, one of my nieces is in all kinds of
trouble. I've been debating with myself having a heart to heart with
her. We aren't very close emotionally or geographically so I'm not
sure how well received it might be. But then I think at that age, kids
are begging for role models and guidance --- they just don't always realize
it. But really wtf am I to tell her how to be? I did already
tell her parents what I thought of their parenting techniques while offering
my condolences. It's time for Tough Love. Most kids are way too
molly-coddled these days. Haha, so says the mother of none. I
feel for her pain, but I know from personal experience that PityParties just
lead down a useless path. Aunt Wendy to the rescue? Bahahahah I
can't even rescue myself.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
||I had a bizarre & disturbing dream last night --- a visit
from one of my Spirit Animal Guides. Yeah, yeah, make fun all you
want, but I firmly believe that when I have one of these dreams, it's my
subconscious letting me know something is awry. Anyway, I was walking
across rocks in a
canal like stepping stones, except they ended a few feet from the
opposite bank. So I faced my fear and jumped into the
black water to swim the last 4 feet. However, once I was in the
water, the distance became greater as things are wont to do in dreams.
As I tried to swim to the shore, I became almost
paralyzed --- willing my body to keep going but not moving more than an
inch at a time. By the way, did I mention there were
alligators on the opposite shore moving into the water now? Just
as one was about to swim under me and bump me, I hid behind my big
hat and woke up.
I've been trying to puzzle this out but can't seem to
figure it out. It sounds bad though.
Thursday. February 9, 2006
||I just flew back from an exhausting business trip.
Five long days of non-stop smiling and PowerPoint shows. There was no
scheduled downtime, and I even had a roommate so my only alone time was my 5
minutes in the shower. That really took its toll on me, so I've been
hiding at home, barely speaking, and sleeping tons. Galahad went out
of town almost as soon as I got back, so it's very quiet here.
I went to visit my friend. She had pretty heartbreaking news a few
weeks back, saying her cancer situation was worse. It deflated her
morale, and that scared me. But she was her high-spirited self again
last night, for which I was grateful.
I counted myself lucky that I didn't get sick after returning home from
my trip. I was sucking down vitamin C like crazy but falling deeper
into sleep debt and exposing myself to all kinds of nasty germs.
Apparently, quite a few people succumbed to the sickness. And just
when I was feeling high & mighty, I had my knees kicked out from under me.
Holy fuck, I woke up in pain this morning. I took a double dose of
Imitrex (that I keep by my bedside) and finally crawled out of bed at about
1 PM when I was starving & thirsty. Jeebus! It felt like someone
took a sledgehammer to my head, in time to Madonna's newest hit.
I crawled down the stairs and fixed my morning oatmeal and was a couch
potato all day. I watched all kinds of bizarre daytime TV. Wow.
If I didn't have anyone needing/wanting me in his life, I don't think I'd
still be breathing right now. I'm so over this. The good isn't
outweighing the bad anymore. It's been about even lately --- with
today knocking the scales hard into bad. I'm on my 3rd
Imitrex currently and conscious enough to come here and whine. I hate
whining to my friends & loved ones. I know it's not easy to listen to
someone you care about in pain and feel helpless, so I choose not to do that
most times. Hell, I can't stand myself when I'm whiny like this.
Thanks by the way, if you're still reading this.
I hope I feel better tomorrow...
||David vs. Goliath
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
||Fkn Denny's unsmiling bitch! I now have a low grade
Sunday, January 22, 2006
||My first Tai Chi class was this morning. I missed last
week's class cuz it was too cold outside, and I was a wuss. So now I
had to try to play catch up. It wasn't a pretty sight for my
uncoordinated self. Who knew this was so fkn tricksy? At the end
of our class, the Chinese guy took our picture in a pose. I'm so sure
he's taking it back to China to giggle at us all with his friends. It
reminds me of that sushi clip (which was taken down or else I'd link it) of
Japanese people making fun of Americans for eating raw fish and using sticks
to eat. Ten minutes into the class, I was practically in tears and
swearing to myself I would NOT be back next week. I was so frustrated
and couldn't figure out where my arms were supposed to be when my feet were
like so. But after 40 minutes or so, I started to feel the chi
goodness of it all. I decided I would try one more week, and next week
is on the beach with no new steps to learn.
Afterwards, we all went to
Denny's for breakfast. I fkn hate Denny's, but I was starving and for
some bizarre reason there are no delis anywhere around. To add insult
to injury, we had to wait for our table. However we did get somewhat
of a floor show with that. Two old guys almost duked it out over a
front row parking space. It was funny seeing them, in shorts with
their black socks pulled up too high, shouting and acting tough. My
friend was ready to cheer them on, but I almost walked over and asked them
if they knew how stupid they looked. Since one never knows about who
owns what semi-automatic weapon, I let the moment pass.
Our waitress was godawful. I wouldn't be happy to work there
either, but FFS at least fake a smile when you're working for tips.
Then she sneezed twice while taking our order. Wet sneezes. I
kept reminding myself I have a healthy immune system and a cast iron
stomach. Plus, I was starving. My 1st breakfast had
already worn off. Tai Chi is hard stuff.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
||Happy Fucking New Year! I've been having a rough time
with migraines the past few weeks and with that, keeping my morale up.
Every day is a struggle somehow, and I wonder how to talk myself out of the
deep pit of despair (sometimes on an hourly basis). And then, I read
the news and see all kinds of true horror out there and feel like a spoiled
kid for whining so much. I remind myself how lucky I am.
Okay, enough of that. Let's see... I just came back from a fabulous
trip to Naples to see my good friend & her new boyfriend. By the way,
they had so much less tree damage (from Hurricane Wilma) than we did and I
think it's because the East coast of Florida did NOT stick with native trees
while the West coast mostly did. Her boyfriend has a house on the
beach which is absolutely gorgeous. It's an older home and much close
to the Naples I remember as a kid than all of those McMansions that keep
going up everywhere (here especially). ON THE FKN BEACH!!! Did I
mention that part?
My room looked out onto the ocean, and I listened to the waves gently
crashing against the shore. ON THE FKN BEACH!!!! I didn't
realize how much I missed her until I saw her again. Haha, we had so
much fun just goofing and laughing everywhere we went.
I have 2 restaurant reviews to give. The first is a trendy sushi
joint in downtown Naples called Blu Sushi.
The food was incredible, but I would never go back because their service
(with the exception of our bubbly waitress) was horrible. We called in
advance to ask if we could make reservations and were told we didn't need
them. Of course when we got there, we had to wait 45 minutes for a
table. Then (here comes the kicker where I normally would have walked
out if I had even stayed originally), I asked if they could substitute cream
cheese for mayonnaise in one roll and was told No. WTF??? NO????
Then, he says it's all prepared ahead of time. My face literally had
WTF written all over it so he checked with his chef (or went to get a drink)
and came back and said that they couldn't. Their menu does in fact
say, please ask and we will create whatever you desire. Prepared ahead
of time??? Does he know he works at a sushi restaurant? I didn't
make a big deal cuz I didn't want my food spit in, and I was out with
friends, but for the love of Mike!
The 2nd one was called
Cafe and was fabulous!!! I was overly hungry and wigging out
(almost ready to eat at Subway FFS). This was just down the road, so I
took a chance, and omigod I had a fiesta in my mouth. Yum!!
Plus, the service was great, and the prices not too crazy. They sat us
immediately and served us soon afterwards.
However the most important news today is that
Bertram was granted a reprieve! Long live Bertram!