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November 22, 2003 Passion... In recent months I have come to a higher understanding of what drives us in this world... and ultimatly what I had lost when I found myself. I know that everything in this life is a curse and a blessing. I know that I lost something when I found myself. I lost my passion. I found tranquility, I found stillness, in my mind that drove me crazy most of the time. I lost that zest... I never thought that passion was something that you could find, or keep. I thought that people had a set level of passion and that is where they will always be... however over the last couple of months I have found passion in my life, I found my passion in form of a woman. And when I did, I found also that I had passion about many things... Especially in life. My music has opened up to a new level, as well as my poetry and my art. No matter whether or not this woman stays in my life, I have refound my passion. She was the best thing that could have happened, I needed to get away from the droll, monotonous life that I had before. Everything is new everyday, and although I know it deep down it is truly hard for me to remember when I need to remember. I realized much else as well. I realized that I must live my life instead of thinking how to live it. I cannot go any farther in my spirituality because I am in the center of it. all roads lead away. I must just enjoy what I have right now and be happy for it will be gone and a new moment will spring up. I am... with passion... (as someone else put it) and as long as I hold onto my truth, and The Life. I will never lose my passion. Here is my thank you to her, for making me realize in yet another chapter of life, that there is more, and I will always learn more.
Smile... Life is watching. |
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July 30, 2003 In many of my posts I have talked at great length about getting down on the world, but what happens when we are up on the world, what happens when everything is just how it should be? Some of us, when things are good, begin to base our happiness on the good things that are happening, although it is a great time in our lives, and we should cherish those good things, what about when things come crashing down. It's easier for me to be happy because of things going on in my life rather then Life. There is only one constant in this world, and that is the universe, nature, the world, all and nothing. I try in my life to not let the things happening to me affect my happiness, for good or for bad, this is what peace truly is. When you step away from a situation and look at the point of view of not having it, are you as happy as before? Taking the time to enjoy Life and Life to it's fullest is the only way to obtain peace, when things in your life don't affect the quality of your life. To be happy having nothing, bieng nothing, and prehaps doing nothing (assuming that is it true to your heart). I cannot tell anyone their way, but I can say that you should follow your heart in all regards. You should do what you think is right, and I know what is right for me, but I'm not you therefore, I don't know what is right for you.
A note about war:
I haven't talked about the war yet, some say the war is over, however I belive that there will be no end soon. I belive that you cannot tell someone else how to live their life, and you can only be for something and not against. Although our president may say he is for certain things, in my humble opinion he is only against. He is against tyranny, non-democratic, non-american things. My problem with this all is what would he accomplish if those things were not here? If things were "right" in his mind would he have something to add to the essence? Would he make the world a better place? We've spent billions of dollars to kill, provide "freedom" and to "end terrorism". There is a small child somewhere in this world that didn't eat today, yesterday or the day before that, there are millions of them, but to spend the millions it would cost to stop world hunger, is something that the president and congress have no cares about. We don't care about the well bieng of the rest of the world, so how can our leader even think about saying that he started this war to make the world a better place when all he would really have to do is give a family a bag of rice? You tell me, these are My views, these have nothing to do with oneness, with enlightenment, or with loving life. But I feel so strongly that I must speak out for peace. |
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