You heavens above, rain down righteousness; let the clouds
shower it down. Let the earth open wide, let salvation spring up,
let righteousness grow with it; I, the LORD , have created it.
Isaiah 45:8

soak it up Jesus, nature, back massages, cup of noodles, sleep, funny faces, candy, long walks, drama, band, spongebob, bedhair, loud music, earthy colors, soft beds, big sweaters, raspberry jam, my cousins, camcorders, photography, public speaking, improv comedy, rain, acoustic guitar, tchaikovsky's first violin concerto in d major :)

squeeze it out tourette syndrome, homework, pervs, dry food, gossip, ADD, ignorance, fighting


send some rain, won't You send some rain, because the earth is dry and needs to drink again.

the girl: Trisha Amy
years breathing: 16
brushes: short ash blonde hair
dyes it: brown and blonde
sees through: green eyes
standing tall: 5'9"
see her: here

i wanna be safe.

safe ( P ) Pronunciation Key (sf)
adj. saf·er, saf·est
1. Secure from danger, harm, or evil. 2. Free from danger or injury; unhurt: safe and sound.
3. Free from risk; sure: a safe bet.
4. Affording protection: a safe place.

and all i can think about is how i want someone to notice that i'm beautiful

I remember when I was a kid, dreaming what it would be like to be 16. Boyfriends, makeup, clothes. But ever since I grew up it was like being tossed into a giant pool with the rest of humanity. Most of us are trying to swim to the surface and we keep trying and trying to be beautiful and squirming and squirming in the water to get up. And every now and then you get to stick your chin above just a little to get a half-breath of air and then you sink again just enough to swallow a little water and it's like if you realy tried then maybe you could live like that. But it always seems to be just lack, and more lack, and every morning of every day it's lack, and you try to find maybe another way out of the pool and you know that there must be because this isn't normal. All you want is for someone to say you're beautiful, someone to notice, and you can change your grades, you can even change your personality, but this is the ONE thing that you can't change.

And a few times I found the secret way out of the pool into the sun that warms your face and dries you off as soon as it hits you, and everytime the secret ladder out of the pool is easier to find. But I don't understand how relying only on God to make me beautiful and not the world is a lesson that I have to learn a thousand times over.

The clouds roll away to unveil such beauty in the stars
As the wind gets inside my sweater making me cold
The beauty I once adored now makes me close my eyes and wish
For release
For anything else
But the shivers are numbed by the overwhelming sickness
That an inquisitive mind and searching lonely heart
Seems to have coming
Nausia teases my discusting lungs
And all I have I think is my eyes, only to see how you love me
Such a pure love, so warm so brave and so adapting
To become all things to still pull me out of the dark
And to still heal and help me when I drown myself
In my own sickness
That you drink and take upon yourself
Just to see me be able to breathe
And then able to sing and I sing and I dance just for you

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