Thinking out loud . . .




I thought I'd write about my history.
My mother looks Cherokee to me. She always wore her long hair in braids. I used to think she must be as beautiful as Eve was. I was in awe that she was my mother. When I was sick she would sit beside me and stroke my forehead with her hands. She has beautiful hands.

In 1994, I met a wonderful man. We EACH married for the second time. He showed me that I was not broken. We have a precious son together. And now that I am safe, I have returned to what I have always loved . . .




When I first began to go outside my home and talk to Creator, a toad decided to start coming out from under the sidewalk each time I prayed. Country thinks this creature claimed me. From what I understand, the toad is very closely associated with Mother Earth, and healing. I actually find great comfort in that thought. My life and emotions need a mother, and need healing, too. So I look for the legends and teachings that can open this knowledge.

I have been having dreams, too.

In one, I am inside a round house. There is a huge brown owl circling the ceiling and dipping towards my head. I'm a little bit afraid of it because it's flying so close, but I don't think it's going to hurt me.

In another dream, I am walking in the North Arkansas Mountains that I love so much from when I was a girl. Only I know it was a long time ago. Someone who I love very much is with me; pointing, but I can't see them. We are so happy to be there. I know that we will come back often, but I don't know why.

And then there is the dream where I am tending my garden, and it's very important that I get the borders right. I have this stack of branches, and I'm trying to line the edges of the garden with them, but they are bent wrong. There is no one to straighten them, and my hands are too weak to do it myself. I'm crying and asking for help. Someone is there with his back to me. I don't know who it is, but he is humming softly, the same song over and over. Someone else is there too. I think it's someone I know, but she won't talk to me either. She has this small, thin flute and it is the prettiest thing. An aurora of a rainbow seems to be spreading out from the flute, but she won't help me with the branches either, and I'm just crying and working. I want to understand because there is a reason they are in my garden, but the dream ends.




Earlier this year I was missing my gramma terribly. About the time I began talking to Country and looking to learn about my heritage a blackberry bush grew up in the middle of my crape myrtle tree in my front yard. We do not have blackberries near our home. I know my gramma gave me this bush. My husband said a bird was lucky and ate seeds and pooped them in our tree/yard. I still think it's a gift from gramma.

I also think it's a way for Creator to tell me that I'm not wasting my time.




I just found my husband's information. He has an impressive family tree. Many years ago a man named Samuel Paschal had a brother. The brother's name Was George Washington Paschall who married Sollie Ridge... She was the daughter of Major Ridge. Even though the lineage wasn't what we expected, we still have a story for our son!


1. Sarah RIDGE was born 1804.
She was the daughter of 2. Nunna'hidihi Nunga'Hattarchee - Pathiller II, Man On The Mountaintop or The Ridge, Major Eidge and 3. Sehoya Schoya Susannah WICKETT.
She married George Washington PASCHAL Sr.. He was born 1800. She married Charles PIX. He was born 1800.

Child of Sarah RIDGE and George Washington PASCHAL Sr. is: i.George Washington PASCHAL Jr. was born 1822. He married Frances TILLEY. She was born 1830.

Generation No. 2

2. Nunna'hidihi Nunga'Hattarchee - Pathiller II, Man On The Mountaintop or The Ridge, Major Ridge. He was the son of 4. Dutsi Tachee Tarchee Ogonostota Tatsi TARCHEE OGONOSTOTA TATSI aka "Dutch" and 5. Susannah Catherine - of the Deer Clan.
3. Sehoya Schoya Susannah WICKETT.

Children of Sehoya Schoya Susannah WICKETT and Nunna'hidihi Nunga'Hattarchee - Pathiller II, Man On The Mountaintop or The Ridge, Major Ridge are: i. Walter RIDGE was born 1810. He married Elizabeth. ii. Nancy "Nannie" RIDGE. She married Buzzard Flopper John MARTIN. iii. George RIDGE. iv. Ganun' dalegi Ghaha' tahtlegi (John) RIDGE - One Who Follows The Ridge was born 1802, and died 1839. He married Sarah Bird NORTHRUP. She was born 1810. 1. v. Sarah RIDGE was born 1804. She married George Washington PASCHAL Sr.. He was born 1800. She married Charles PIX. He was born 1800.

Generation No. 3

4. Dutsi Tachee Tarchee Ogonostota Tatsi TARCHEE OGONOSTOTA TATSI aka "Dutch". He was the son of 8. Onacona "White Owl" Attakullkulla or Attacullaculla "Leaning Wood" and 9. Nionne Ollie - of the Paint Clan.

5. Susannah Catherine - of the Deer Clan.

Children of Susannah Catherine - of the Deer Clan and Dutsi Tachee Tarchee Ogonostota Tatsi TARCHEE OGONOSTOTA TATSI aka "Dutch" are:2. i. Nunna'hidihi Nunga'Hattarchee - Pathiller II, Man On The Mountaintop or The Ridge, Major Eidge. He married Sehoya Schoya Susannah WICKETT.

ii. Scar The Law Sky Buck RIDGE. iii. David OOWATIE - The Ancient One was born 1773, and died 1842. He married Susannah Charity REESE.

Generation No. 4

8. Onacona "White Owl" Attakullkulla or Attacullaculla "Leaning Wood" was born 1695 in Sevier's Island, Tennessee, and died 1797 in Nacheztown, North Carolina (now Tennessee). He was the son of 16. White Owl Raven - An Algonquin and 17. Nancy (called Nancy by the British) of the Wolf Clan.

9. Nionne Ollie - of the Paint Clan. She was the daughter of 18. Oconostota , the Groundhog Sausage, who was the Beloved Warrior of the Cherokee and 19. Unidentified - of the Paint Clan.
Children of Nionne Ollie - of the Paint Clan and Onacona "White Owl" Attakullkulla or Attacullaculla "Leaning Wood" are: i. Colonah - the Raven of Chota - 3.
ii. Ooskiah Oskuah - Old Abraham of Chillowe or Chilhowie. iii. Ookoonaka Nahoola Ookoovsdi - Little White Owl died 1793. iv. Turtle at Home - 1 was born 1754. He married Unidentified. v. Occunna Ocuma - The Badger. vi. Olli - 2 - of the Paint Clan. She married Enola Black Fox. vii. Chuconsene - "The Savage Napoleon" was born 1730, and died 1 Mar 1792 in Lookout Town, Tennessee. He married U-ga-lo-gv Leaf, Nelly Pathkiller. She was born 1730. viii. Tai-ya-gansi-ni (he is) Dragging (the) Canoe. ix. Wurtagua. She married John WATTS - 3, son of George WATTS - Onitostah, Onitostaii, Utisdasata, Rayetaeh-Utisdsata. and A Creek (Muskogee) woman - of the Longhair Clan (Creek). 4. x. Dutsi Tachee Tarchee Ogonostota Tatsi TARCHEE OGONOSTOTA TATSI aka "Dutch". He married Susannah Catherine - of the Deer Clan.

Generation No. 5

16. White Owl Raven - An Algonquin.

17. Nancy (called Nancy by the British) of the Wolf Clan. She was the daughter of 34. Amatoya Moytoy The Elder and 35. Quatsy of Telico, of the Wolf Clan.

Children of Nancy (called Nancy by the British) of the Wolf Clan and White Owl Raven - An Algonquin are:8. i. Onacona "White Owl" Attakullkulla or Attacullaculla "Leaning Wood" was born 1695 in Sevier's Island, Tennessee, and died 1797 in Nacheztown, North Carolina (now Tennessee). He married Nionne Ollie - of the Paint Clan, daughter of Oconostota , the Groundhog Sausage, who was the Beloved Warrior of the Cherokee and Unidentified - of the Paint Clan. ii. Tame Doe aka Ca-ti Catherine Attakullakulla (beause she was his full sister) - of the Wolf Clan was born 1712 in Cherokee Nation East, and died ABT 1760. She married Skayagustuegwo Fivekiller - Delaware ABT 1720. iii. Galagina Killikeenah, Killaneca The Buck. He married Unidentified. iv. Betsy. She married Uskwatiguta His Stomach Is Hanging Down, Scolacutta the Hanging Maugh.

18. Oconostota , the Groundhog Sausage, who was the Beloved Warrior of the Cherokee was born 1704, and died Mar 1783. He was the son of 36. John Beaver Beamer BEAMER and 37. Aganunitsi Quatie.

19. Unidentified - of the Paint Clan.

Child of Unidentified - of the Paint Clan and Oconostota , the Groundhog Sausage, who was the Beloved Warrior of the Cherokee is:9. i. Nionne Ollie - of the Paint Clan. She married Onacona "White Owl" Attakullkulla or Attacullaculla "Leaning Wood", son of White Owl Raven - An Algonquin and Nancy (called Nancy by the British) of the Wolf Clan. He was born 1695 in Sevier's Island, Tennessee, and died 1797 in Nacheztown, North Carolina (now Tennessee

Generation No. 6

34. Amatoya Moytoy The Elder was born 1635/1645 in Chota, at Little Tennessee River.

35. Quatsy of Telico, of the Wolf Clan.
Children of Quatsy of Telico, of the Wolf Clan and Amatoya Moytoy The Elder are:17. i. Nancy (called Nancy by the British) of the Wolf Clan. She married White Owl Raven - An Algonquin. ii. Oo-yo-sti Otiyu, Polly, or Quali (Quali is Cherokee for Polly). She married John BOWLES - (That Holds The Strong Black Drink), son of BOWLES - a Scottish-Irish trader and Unknown - a Cherokee woman. iii. Daughter. She married The Raven of Chota. iv. Daughter. v. Daughter. She married A Shawnne Captive. 37. vi. Aganunitsi Quatie. She married John Beaver Beamer BEAMER. She married Smallpx Conjeror of Settico. vii. Daughter. viii. Kanagatoga Old Hop, The Fire King of Chota called "Hopper" by the British was born 1690, and died 1760. ix. Tistoe 1. x. Oukah-Ulah Okeah-ulay or Okoukahula OKEAH-ULAY was born 1681, and died 1755.

36. John Beaver Beamer BEAMER.

37. Aganunitsi Quatie. She was the daughter of 74. Amatoya Moytoy The Elder and 75. Quatsy of Telico, of the Wolf Clan. Children of Aganunitsi Quatie and John Beaver Beamer BEAMER are: i. Kittagusta Kitagista Skalilosken or Sealilosken KITAGISTA SKALILOSKEN was born 1700. He married Quatsy - 2. ii. Daughter. iii. Outacite Outossity Ostenaco Skiagusta Ustenaca Rusteenokogagan Mankiller OUTOSSITY OSTENACO SKIAGUSTA USTENACA RUSTEENOKOGAGAN MANKILLER.

18. iv. Oconostota , the Groundhog Sausage, who was the Beloved Warrior of the Cherokee was born 1704, and died Mar 1783. He married Unidentified - of the Paint Clan. He married Ooloosta Oolootsa - 1 - of the Blue Holly Clan.




This information is here so I have access to it as I study. I got it from a pedigree chart listed on www.ancestry.com











My genealogy

a work in progress!

A few links to some Goforth information that I'd like to share:

A Starting place for our Goforth line is laid out by far distant cousins. The family history is very interesting. The 1830, census for Wayne County shows three Goforth families living in that southern Middle Tennessee area -- Haslip, William and Zachariah. The 1838 tax list shows Zachariah owned 22 acres. These names are entwined in my Goforth line. One of these men had a son, Zachariah Goforth; born September 1826 in Tenn, and died August 16, 1907 in Crawford Co, Ark (or Sequoyah Co, Ok)
He married (1) Nancy Abt. 1842. She was born Abt. 1826 in TN.
He married (2)Margaret Sophia Lindsey Abt. 1867 in Texas. She was born Abt. 1837 in Mississippi, and died Abt. 1887 in (AR).
He married (3)Phoebe April 01, 1888 in Carroll County, Arkansas. She was born November 1845 in Mo.
Margaret Lindsey is our elusive link to the Dawes Roll. She is listed as a parent on card #288. Only one or two members of the family were actually listed on the Dawes Roll. Margaret had a land allotment through the lottery. I believe that as we piece the history of this family together, we can see that the move was made to TX about the time Daniel Boone moved from TN.
Our history is, interestingly, pretty consolidated area wise from James Goforth, forward. Here is a map of the area.



Notes for Zachariah Goforth:

In Confederate Service: Co K., 19 Texas Cavalry, (Burford's Regiment) private. Roll date Camp Stonewall Jackson, Headquarters 19th regiment Texas Cavalry, Dallas County, June 26, 1862.
M323 - 105 19th Cavalry (Burford's Regiment) Gl--O
Mustered: by John C. McCoy
When: April, 1862
Joined for duty: April 1862, by Capt. James Thomas
Descript: 5' 10 1/4"
Eyes: gray; hair: black.
valuation of horse $110. equip. $15.

My great-great-grandfather was James Thomas Goforth, named after Zachariah's commanding officer.

RE: index to Confed. Pension Applic. for Ark.
Goforth, Z., Co. K 19th Tex. Cav.; he applied 1906, Crawford, Co, AR; he died August 16, 1907. Van Buren, Crawford Co, Ark: July Term Book H, pg 99 July 1, 1907 Petition of Z. Goforth, citizen of Crawford Co, AR, he is in indigent circumstances. He has sore leg and foot, the result of wounds received in Civil War, he has no property or means of support, other than a Confederate Pension of $100 p/yr. and on account of his afflictions, he is unable to earn a support. Placed on pauper list @ $10.00 p/mo.

From this point on, I have accurate records of Zachariah Goforth's NINTH Child, James Thomas Goforth. I have a file crudely saved in html format that can be accessed HERE I have some ideas as to why Zachariah Goforth was divorced and remarried. If you ever want to discuss it, just email me.
ozzmaga@yahoo.com




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The photo at the top is an original that I took in the 80's. The tube I used to enhance it is from Kandyz's PSP Tubes.
I can't link to it because of some nudity.



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