Poetry for Stephen

26Oct01-13Nov01

Words, Spoken and Unspoken
13Nov01

Sitting and Talking
13Nov01

Tears that fall
12Nov01

Meeting the days
11Nov01

Four Months without you
11Nov01

Sweetheart
09Nov01

Grief
06Nov01

I rely on you
04Nov01

Live ON!
04Nov01

Thinking about us
03Nov01

Smiles
30Oct01

Your love is
29Oct01

Heaven
28Oct01

Hearts ache
28Oct01

Strength
26Oct01

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A smile died

I don't think words can ever say
How often that you made my day
A word or phrase to bring a smile
Some joy to last a little while

A joke or just a game of tag
When the day began to lag
Would bring about the honest laughter
That it seems like you were after

Many times my eyes were lit
And you were the cause of it
And I was not the only one
Whose day you brightened with the sun

There were many who have found
The days were bright with you around
All of us can feel the lack
And wish that we could have you back

Margot Hill
13Nov01

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Words, Spoken and unspoken

Each time that I look at your face
The words come straight from my heart
I love you, I miss you, they echo within me
Now that we are forever apart

I can't stop the love that is in me
From saying those words to your face
And I know that somehow you can hear me
As my words cross the boundries of space

For we never acknowledge the limits
Of space, of time or of thought
We had a connection between us
That couldn't be severed or fought

So each day when I look at your picture
Or think of your voice and your smiles
I know that we're always together
Our division not measured in miles

So walk with me, darling, in spirit
And be beside me, hand in hand
For I know that if you are not with me
I won't have the stremgth left to stand

So I walk thru the rest of my life
Steadied always with eternal love
For although your body is ashes
Your soul shines on me from above

Margot Hill
13Nov01

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Sitting and talking

Who is that wizened old lady
Sitting out there on your grave
Talking out loud to the grass and flower
And the picture of you that she saved

Each day she comes out to see you
To sit and talk there a while
And when she is talking about you
That's the only time I've seen her smile

Time froze on the day that she lost you
I can't say how long it has been
She knew that the moment you said goodbye
She'll never to complete again

I can see her as clearly as day
Though there is no grave to go to
Look again and I know you will see
It is just me talking to you

Margot Hill
13Nov01

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Tears that fall

I can not help
The tears that fall
The loss of you
Has made them all

Your choice to take
That final bow
Has left me with
The question how

How can I now
Go on alone
Face the world
All on my own

Beside you I know
I will stay
Until I reach
My final day

You will remain
Here in my heart
Although we are
So far apart

So each new day
As the dawn draws near
I hold you close
Though you're not here

I cherish all
that you have shared
remembering
How much you cared

You can not stop
These tears I shed
They fall because
You now are dead

Margot Hill
12Nov01

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Meeting the days

As I meet the coming days
I think of you so many ways

Days of celebration near
And counting all that we hold dear

Days too with their calm reflections
Of all we hold in our affections

A joyful time and time of thanks
For those who do not know the blanks

Of losing one they dearly love
Gone much too early up above

I can not help but miss you so
For you made the choice to go

I wonder how to do Thanksgiving
And I approach it with misgiving

For all my thanks are bittersweet
And joyful people are hard to meet

When seeing them often reninds me
Of things that now will never be

The starting of each day with you
Holding close when day is through

They are now just a memory
But ones that always stay with me

So in these days of joyful song
I find I can not sing along

My music has a mournful sigh
Since you chose to say goodbye

You left your thoughts and cares behind
Put in safe keeping in my mind

You handed me a sacred trust
To carry on and so I must

And strangely in the darkest night
I find you are the shining light

That helps to guide me on my way
Your love surronds me through the day

For though your body's dead and gone
Your heart and soul live on and on

Walk with me now tonight, tomorrow
Support when I feel the sorrow

For dreams that will not come to pass
Until I walk with you at last

I'll lay my cares gently aside
And be eternally by your side

Margot Hill
11Nov01

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Four months without you

Tomorrow will be the day
That I can say it's true
Somehow I have survived
Four months without you

I din't think I knew when it started
That I could survive all the pain
But each day my body withstands it
When tears begin flowing again

Sometimes they just sting in my eyes
Some days they will roll down my face
Some of them start way down in my chest
But all of them need your embrace

The tears and the lost, lonely hours
From knowing you're forever gone
Somehow I must find the inner strength
To walk down life's path on my own

I know what I lost when you left here
You've taken the whole of my heart
For whether we walk on earth or above
Our souls will not be apart

I gave you my heart long ago, love
And gave you my soul and my will
Even though you have left this earth
You know they belong to you still

Margot Hill
11Nov01

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Sweetheart

Sweetheart, I love you
I miss you so much
I sit here alone
And long for your touch

But the only way
To touch you now
Is to touch your spirit
I'm learning how

Our minds, our souls
Began to blend
This is something
Your death can't end

For whereever you walk
Here or above
I will walk with you
And share our love

For my place is beside you
And holding your hand
That alone strengthens me
And helps me to stand

You promised to be there
You lend me your soul
With love and with laughter
You made my heart whole

So reach beyond death
As I reach for you
We'll walk this path together
It's wide enough for two

Margot Hill
09Nov01

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Grief

What is this term called healthy grief
When I am still in disbelief
About the fact that you are gone
And I must now go on alone

For these last years I have found
That thoughts of you are all around
They fill the pauses iin my day
For years there's been no other way

They say the healthy thing is when
The constant thoughts are at an end
Yet looking back I can not find
A time when you aren't on my mind

Since we met four years ago
I can not stop the ever flow
Of thoughts, of words, of memories
All things that you have shared with me

It started with a remembered smile
Or chatting of you a little while
And as our time together grew
My thoughts would often turn to you

The love, the laughter and the tears
the joy, the pain and all the fears
Would tumble around in my brain
Until I talked to you again

Now I can not hear your voice
Because you saw no other choice
But leaving did not change my heart
It knows with love nothing's apart

Thoughts of you they fill my head
And help me face each day ahead
Your love it shines a guiding light
A glowing beacon in the night

So should I put aside the love
That helps to guide me from above
I do not think that I know how
For it is what sustains me now.

Margot Hill
05Nov01

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I rely on you

Missing your smiling face
Longing for your embrace
Wising you were not forever gone
I really don't know how to go on

Each day when there is pause
Even if there is no cause
The memories and tears they flow
Knowing that you chose to go

You didn't wait a little while
To see if gloom would turn to smiles
You saw the darkness closing in
And felt that you would never win

You left me to carry on the flame
Knowing my rest I could not claim
The only way I'll make it thru
Is if I can rely on you

So stand beside me every day
Together is the only way
And even though I miss you so
Your heart and soul will never go

Margot Hill
04Nov01

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Live ON!

All the nights we'd sit and talk
I'll have those night no more
To listen to
The only man
I ever will adore

From this earth and all it's pain
You've set you body free
Your essence though-
Heart, soul and thoughts
You left them here with me

You gave to me so many gifts
They were the priceless kind
They were the gift
Of who you were
In your heart, soul and mind

You shared with me your struggles
And showed to me your pain
And smiled at me
With heart felt joy
When you triumphed again

I knew that you were tired
You were not at your best
I wish I could
Have stopped you when
You chose that final rest

There are so many, many things
I want to share with you
With the quilt
And poetry
I find some how I do

Your spirit will not go away
Although I know you're dead
All your thoughts
And all your cares
Live on in me instead

Margot Hill
04Nov01

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Thinking about us

Thinking about the day
I heard you had died
Wanting so bad
To find somewhere to hide

Didn't want to believe
Wasn't sure it was real
Couldn't handle the pain
And how lost I now feel

You told me how much
You loved me that day
Did you already know
You were going away

I understand the feelings
And the thoughts that you had
That is exactly
What makes me so sad

You left believing
Somehow i'd be free
But death doesn't alter
Love between you and me

You left me because
You weren't at your best
You were so scared
I couldn't handle the rest

Is there ever a day
I can't handle your heart
I have been beside you
Right from the start

And I'm right beside you
Although you have gone
The love and the memories
and your presence go on

They live in my heart
The comfort my soul
For from the beginning
They made my half whole

The hurt you felt
The fear and dread
I know you didn't
Want it to spread

In those moments of fear
You could not feel my love
But I know you can feel it
As you watch from above

When I call you close
Your presence is here
Our hearts and our souls
Will always be near

So my love remember
Although we're apart
We're always together
Right here in my heart

One day together
Our souls they will soar
The pain that I live with
Will haunt me no more

Margot Hill
03Nov01

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Smiles

The smiles I've had
Since you've been gone
Have never reached my heart
I found that joy was missing
Since we've been apart

But yesterday
I found a smile
That I could not hide
It bubbled up and shined it's light
From way down deep inside

The reason that
I had a smile
To last the whole day through
Was simple yet quite eloquent
It was because of you

A friend of yours
Gave me a gift
A blessing to be sure
And I can see you once again
So clearly with these pictures

I love you and
I miss you so
Your special light went out
But I can find the afterglow
Your presence is about

So smile at me
A special smile
You're watching from above
The joy that I can find right now
comes straight from you my love

Margot Hill
30Oct01

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Your love is

In the corner of my days
As I count the many ways
That your love is good for me
I know with you I'll always be

You helped me find the strength to fight
When I knew that I was right
And my son I must defend
You stood behind, a faithful freind

Into each day you brought some joy
Like a mischievious little boy
Finding ways to bring on laughter
Clear out the things that didn't matter

Every moment that we shared
Reminds me now how much you cared
Every time that we would talk
Every path our minds would walk

I start each day in love with you
I take you with me to get through
So even though you've gone away
You heart and soul with me will stay

Margot Hill
29Oct01

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Heaven

How do I see Heaven above
Full of peace and eternal love
A place that you can ease your pain
And start to feel your strength again

The strength of all the love you shared
With those who found the heart to care
Peace in heaven can soothe your fears
And you'll help guide us through the coming years

Your confusion is at an end
And your mind is at peace my friend
My belief in love helps me hold fast
Till I lay down with you at last

Margot Hill
28Oct01

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Hearts ache

My heart aches so for you
Wishing that it wasn't true
Hard to believe that you're gone
And that I have to gone on alone

Stephen the pain in my heart
Reminds me that we are apart
Because you could not abide the strife
Your face and smile, gone from my life

I know the love that lived inside
And I have faith you're standing beside
Looking at the peace in our shared soul
Reminds me that together we're whole

Our love it knew no bounds in space
Across the miles I'd feel your embrace
All it took was your hand in mine
Physically, verbally then I'd be fine

So when my heart aches for you now
I know I must teach it how
To reach beyond your final choice
And hear your teasing, loving voice

For love it has the strength of kings
It give my soul butterfly wings
Love is stronger even than death
And will stay with me till my final breath

Margot Hill
28Oct01

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Strength

Tears are running down my face
I long so much for your embrace

Your ghostly arms they hold me tight
And with their strength I'll be alright

It's hard somedays to just go on
But with your love I'm not alone

Yes, in my pain I know you're there
Though all that others see is air

For love's what makes your presence strong
And our love has been there all along

Margot Hill
26Oct01

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