Poetry for Stephen

12Oct01-18Oct01

Your Touch
18Oct01

Thank You God
17Oct01

Every day
17Oct01

Standing
16Oct01

Shine on me
16Oct01

More each day
16Oct01

Weird Dreams
16Oct01

Fighting Tears
15Oct01

Always Yours
15Oct01

Holding
14Oct01

Three Months
14Oct01

Forever in reach
14Oct01

Once more
13Oct01

Start my day
13Oct01

Won't let go
12Oct01

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Your touch

Morning, my love,
I miss you so much
To reach out and feel
Your loving touch

The touch that would
start my day with you here
My memories keep
That touch so near

It still begins my day anew
I need to start my morning with you

It wasn't anything you did
Or how you ought to be
Just your sweet reassuring voice
That I hold close to me

And so I still reach out to you
Your touch it starts my day anew.

Margot Hill
18Oct01

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Thank you God

Thank you God for giving me
Your blessings here on earth
You are the only one who knows
How much that blessing's worth

The joy of friendship and of love
That Stephen and I shared
There is nothing else in this world
With which I could compare

The gifts that he gave to his friends
Trust, belief, laughter,
Are things that we can pass along
To those that truly matter

Fir everytime I can reach out
And share his joy and love
I know that I can see him smile
For he's watching from above

So Thank you God for every day
You shared that gift with me
A blessing is what Stephen was
Special joy he'll always be

Margot Hill
17Oct01

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Every Day

It is your smile
That lights my way
Through the dark
And makes my day

It is your love
That see me through
And makes me strong
For what I do

And love, I find
It is your soul
That joins with mine
And makes it whole

So even though
You've gone away
I bring you with me
Every day

Margot Hill
17Oct01

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Standing

He said that he
Would always be
Standing strong behind me

And to this day
In every way
I know that's where he'll stay

I know that here
I'll feel him near
Though sometimes it is through my tears

Margot Hill
16Oct01

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Shine on me

You face, your smile
It shines on me
Whenever I can
Barely see

It light the road
On which I tread
So I don't feel
Encroaching dread

And sad will not be
Sad for long
Whenever I can hear
our songs

The ones that made
us laugh and smile
And find the joys
A little while

Shine on me now
With soul and heart
While we are
So far apart

Margot Hill
16Oct01

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More each day

The dreams I had of you last night
Were not the pleasant kind
Ever since the moment I awoke
Your memories fill my mind

Even though the dreams were
Weird and they were bad
The memories are good and sweet
but make me rather sad

I'm sad because you chose
To meet your final end
And there was nothing I could do
To stop my bestest friend

I miss you more and more each day
Each moment since you went away

Margot Hill
16Oct01

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Weird dreams

I had a dream about you
The dream was very strange
Everything was different
It all was rearranged

In the dream it seemed as if
Murphy's law was right
Bad stuff, if it made sense or not
Came at me in the night

But worst of all, far worse
Than any words we spoke
Was knowing right away you're dead
At three when I awoke

I wanted to go back to sleep
And be with you again
Even though the dreams were of
Imaginary pain

Margot Hill
16Oct01

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Fighting tears

I'm fighting my tears again today
I struggle so much since you went away

I miss you so much my eyes fill with tears
Thonking of all the lost time, the lost years

I know that you thought it was all for the best
I know that you just needed some rest

And here I m left all alone
Hard to believe you are really gone

I love you, I want you, I miss your sweet voice
I know how you struggled with your final choice

You knew how I loved you and how you loved me
But an ease for your pain you just couldn't see

So today I am fighting the unending sorrows
Of knowing that we will have no tomorrows

Margot Hill
15Oct01

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Always yours

My heart and soul
Belong to my love
Even though now
He is gone above

We shared our thoughts
Our hearts and souls
And in that sharing
made two halves whole

Even though he is gone away
I find I know no other way

To live my life
And fight my fears
Then with his love,
laughter and tears

Always my heart
Belongs with his
For that is the only
Way it is

Margot Hill
15Oct01

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Holding

Please hold my heart
In the center of your soul
It is the only place
I ever will be whole

From my eyes
The tears they flow
For all the joys
We will never know

The shelter of my arms
Could not protect you
From the storms
Inside that grew

So you are there
And I am here
We reach past death
Holding each other near

Margot Hill
14Oct01

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Three months

It's been three months
Since your suicide
I still have your soul
Here deep inside

My heart still beats
In tune with one
That is not here
Not since you've gone

My arms, they long
To hold you fast
To make all those
Memories last

And last they do
Each day I stay behind
Walking through life
Your hand in mine

Margot Hill
14Oct01

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Forever in reach

Finding my way back
To the love that we share
On the wings of a seagull
Flying high in the air

If I'm quiet with love
And trust in your touch
I can reach past the despair
Over missing you so much

The pain and the sorrow
Of losing you here
Can wall me away
From feeling you near

I know in the past
I can not change a thing
No matter the questions
Your memories bring

But reach past the tears
Love brings it's own peace
I hold you and find you
Forever in reach

Margot Hill
14Oct01

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Once more

Everytime I see your face in a picture
My mouth says "I love you" once more
It comes out because my heart needs to share
Just like when I've said it before

You voice on your messages to me
Makes the love spring from my heart anew
I could not resist if I wanted
With so many reminders of you

I know that you've chosen to go, dear
Depart from this earth all alone
But I know the love that we shared wil go on
No matter the fact that you're gone

You made your last choice out of pain, love
Cause it hurt and you thought- it won't end
The last thing that you would have ever done
Was to intentional hurt all your friends

So each time that I look at your picture
Or listen to your voice- what a tease
The love in my heart continues to bloom
Like a garden where I can find ease

Margot Hill
13Oct01

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Start my day

My love you always start my day
For me there is no other way

To gaze upon the face I love
I know that you've gone up above

It brings such sweetness to me
For I know that with me you will be

Your presence, your soul and your heart
We share them although we're apart

For they all live inside
where your memories reside

And when all of my days here are thru
I will share them forever with you

Margot Hill
13Oct01

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Won't let go

Stephen, I love you
I want you to know
I love you so much
And I won't let you go

I know that your time
here on earth is thru
But always remember
That I still love you

I wish you had not
Made the choice to be gone
And left me to cope
with this pain all alone

But even if I disagree
With the choices that you see

Know that our love is strong
And it will last on and on

Margot Hill
12Oct01

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