Poetry for Stephen

15Sept01-25Sept01

Celebration and Tears
25Sept01

Can I
25Sept01

Next time
25Sept01

As I rise
25Sept01

A quilt
24Sept01

Believe me
23Sept01

Standing Firm
23 Sept 01

One whole
23 Sept 01

Were you?
22 Sept 01

Love Locked In
20Sept01

Call you back
20Sept01

Why me? Why you? Why us?
18Sept01

Tonight
18Sept01

My Love lives on
16Sept01

Dance of the butterfly
15Sept01

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Celebration and tears

Today ,my son, he turns fifteen
I wanted you to see
If he stands along side
he's now taller than me

Today I got to meet his friends
I would have liked you to
It just reminded me again
of much we didn't do

I know I should be smiling
My boy is branching out
I just cry, I'm missing you
"I want you here" I shout

And so I'll smile for Jonathan
And cry for me inside
We would have been a family
But for your suicide

Margot Hill
25 Sept 01

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Can I?

Can I reach beyond the tears
To hear your laughter and your joy
In the quiet of the night
To see you smiling like a boy

Can I reach beyond the pain
To feel your arms surrounding me
With soothing and with comfort
Like you wanted it to be

Can I reach beyond the heartbreak
Of losing you this way
And remind my heart that surely we
Will meet again someday

Margot Hill
25 Sept 01

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Next time

In our next life together
When our souls again they meet
Will we spend our whole lives
In this love that is so sweet

Will we meet again as strangers
And find an instant friend
And find the joy and laughter
In a love that will not end

For now I'm looking forward
And my soul it will await
the moment that we'll meet again
I leave it up to fate

Margot Hill
25Sept01

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As I rise

As I rise and meet the day
I think of you and then I pray

Prayers so that I can cope
Maybe I can find some hope

Prayers to ease my pain awile
Maybe I can even smile

Prayers to guide me on my day
Maybe I can see my way

Stephen, in so many ways
You brought a smile to all my days

And filled my heart with love so true
Everytime I thought of you

It isn't hard to love you still
And I sure I always willl

Until my peace I find at last
And I again can hold you fast

When I lay down in the end
and eternity with you I spend

Margot Hill
25 Sept 01

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A quilt

I'm making a quilt
For all to see
It isn't for them
It's really for me

A way to remember
Your smiling face
A way to hold you
in one last embrace

A way to smile at
Children so dear
A way to laugh
As if you were near

A way to dance
And hold you close
You always knew
when I needed you most

A way to believe
In the magic we share
A way for me
To show I still care

So I'm making a quilt
For me and for you
It really is
Just for us two.

Margot Hill
24Sept01

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Believe me

You had strength
that you couldn't see
When I was struggling
You believed in me

Believed in my honesty
And trusted me
Believed in my trust
And relaxed with me

Believed in my knowledge
And learned from me
Believed in my learning
And taught me to see

Believed in my joy
And loved with me
Believed in our love
And danced with me

Margot Hill
23Sept01

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Standing Firm

On shaky legs
I face the world
Unshaken in
my faith in you

With weeping eyes
I face the people
Joyous in
My love for you

Questioning
I face your choice
Trusing in
my belief in you

Margot Hill
23 Sept 01

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One whole

I awoke this morning
you were with me
Your love and presence
wrapped around me

Sometimes you embraced
the love that we shared
knowing in you heart
How much we both cared

Sometimes you accepted love
but couldn't give it back
needing it and wanting it
But feeling like you lack

Sometimes you would struggle
and push my love away
Trying to convince yourself
That I would leave someday

But I'm the one that's left behind
With sorrow, pain and grief
I have to struggle everyday
To gain myself relief

When your heart surrounds me
And your love, it fills my soul
That is when I hold it close....
We are halves of one whole

Margot Hill
23 Sept 01

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Were you?

Stephen
Were you scared?
Call me

Stephen
Were you lonely?
I'm right here

Stephen
Were you worried?
let me soothe you

Stephen
Were you leaving?
please don't go

Margot Hill
22 Sept 01

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Love Locked In

Our love is
Locked in
so you said
And now I
Hold fast to
That love
And believe
That even in death
Our love is locked in

Margot Hill
20Sept01

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Call you back

Can I
Call you back
From where you are

Just for a moment
Can I hold you again
in my arms

And feel the Love
That we share
Soothe and strengthen me

I belong
Next to you
Whereevr you are

Margot Hill
20Sept01

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Why me? Why you? Why us?

Why was it me?
That was left alone
when you chose to leave
You went on your own

Why was it you?
Whose pain so great
made you decide
You could not wait

Why was it us?
Being ripped apart
After we eah found
A brand new start

I don't have answers
To questions so deep
But our love forever
we will always keep.

Margot Hill
18Sept01

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Tonight

Thinking
Of you
Tonight

I think of wildflowers
in a field
For us to walk thru

I think of stars
In the sky
For us to wish on

I think of hands
intertwined
For us to hold to

Thinking
of you
Tonight
And missing you

Margot Hill
18Sept01

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My Love lives on

Who are you?
my Little Boy Blue
my love so true
Who are you?

You were a man
Who loved
who cared
Sometimes
you were lost
amd scared

Lost in the pain,
Lost in the fear
Lost even tho
I was standing near

I could not reach you
Or call you back
from the path that you took
That lonely track

Your pain is gone now
You fears are past
But the love we share
Will always last

So hold onto to love
My Little Boy Blue
And hold onto me
Like I hold onto you.

Margot Hill
16Sept01

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Dance of the butterfly

Once
You saw us
In a open field
of grass and flowers

I was dancing
with love
with joy

You knew
the love
the joy
But you
couldn't let go
to dance
You were stand still

Later
you called me a butterfly
In the same
beautiful field
Still dancing
while you were standing still

Now that your soul
Flies free
Come dance with me

Margot Hill
15Sept01

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