January 11, 2002
|The Adventures of Paisley
Well, I guess I ran away from this journal for a few days. Things were so chaotic and confusing in my life I didn't know where to begin or what to write. I wanted to pour out my feelings, but they were constantly changing.
There has been all this talk about moving to Nevada. I was conflicted about moving. A lot of it had to do with leaving the best job I have ever had. Basically, it seemed like I'd be throwing everything away for a pig in a poke. I even had to explain that term to Michael and our roommates.
Early in the discussions, I had told Michael that I would follow him wherever he went. Earlier I had said that when we first became engaged, and indeed, I followed him to Angel and Butch's apartment which has turned out to be a good move for the most part. It was good to get me out of that hotel.
However, even after saying that, I had reservations and doubts and finally I had to stick up for myself and be true to myself... and tell Michael that I wasn't going. Oh, was he mad! For a few hours I was afraid he was working himself up into a state to break up with me.
I'll finish this later...
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