Sabastian passed away silently of SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrom). I was never able to hold him, cuddle him or caress his sweet face,
but as his Grandmother I loved him still. I do know, it is possible to love somebody, even if you never get to see them in person.
The day I found out that Sabastian had left us for a better place, I had this piercing pain in my heart, that still remains. I was angry and am angry still. I just don't understand WHY the life of such a beautiful baby, has to be taken from us. Everyone keeps telling me that God has his reasons,
I really wish God could tell me his reasoning for taking this precious life.
Sabastian, Grandma may have never held you or kissed you, but Grandma loves you so much, and loosing you hurts so bad. Watch over us Sabastian, place your sweet little angel hands on your brother Nathanial, and be his guardian through life.