Mais qui est-elle, cette Elle?

 

 

 

Age.............: 30-something
Gender..........: Plenty!
Orientation.....: Always towards the Sun
Zodiac..........: Gemini/Virgo
Height..........: 185 cm (app. 6'2")
Weight..........: "acceptably normal"
Eyes............: A set of two bathing in blue
Hair............: Plenty of it
Sizing..........: 42/44 EU
Shoes...........: 43 EU [UK10-US13]

 

COGIATI.........: III Androgynous
Moir-Jessel.....: 70 - Feminine Male
PAQ Test........: Feminine Male (=app.8% o/t male population)

 

My story

My story is not much different than anyone else's. I've seen, read and heard several hundreds of them. It's not my task to add "just another one". If there's one thing I want you to know, than it is that I'm a happy person. Happy to enjoy the pleasure of having found myself, of being liberated. I'm pretty Zen, and that's all there is to it. If you want to find out more, drop me a line, I'll be happy to share my life's experience with you.

 

My gender

Gender, the thing buzzing through the whole community. What is it all about? Frankly I don't know. The more I read about it, the less I'm sure. A long time ago, it was all very easy: there were only 2 genders; male and female. And yet I never felt I really belonged to either of them. Men were too boring and narrow minded (they still are), women were to much women and I'm not enough of that to really fit in. So I always felt like being stuck in the middle.

Growing up I figured out that gender is more complex then simple arithmetics. I started to uderstand that physical and mental gender are two different things, and that the combination of both determines the gender of the individual as such (or maybe it's something completly different alltogether, but this makes sense to me). So gender is a scale going from male to female, and we're all somewhere in between. The question is how much. And admittingly the majority of humans are male or female enough to be able to fulfill their role in society. Or at least as to the extent that society imposes a gender-role.

Speaking of gender roles. Our society is "thankfully" been indocrinated with a judeo-christian tradition (and for the same reasons you can add in the moslim world, since their cultural/religious tradition is a sequel to the judaism). The beauty of this religious approach is that women are to regarded as second hand human beings and men as the rulers of the planet. The entire value-system imposes a gender divide in the most horrible sense of the word. Women are there to give birth to sons, they are impureand the source of all evil. Makes sense to you? Go back to the ancient religions, the ones that were prevailing in a pre-christianity period. You'll discover that a good number of them started from gender equality and, to a certain degree, a freedom to choose gender. Something we're all fighting for nowadays. In the US a number of indian tribes held on to this system with a "caste" called Berache. Men who integrated with the women of the tribe, living as a women, fulfilling all their tasks. They highly regarded and often had serious impact on many tribal decisions. Since they were the ones who managed to bridge the gender gap and were able te represent both points of view (male and female) and negotiate between them. A similar structure existed with the tribes of the Toendra. Here the sjamaans (high priests) had to live as women for a certain period of time in order to really understand the humans in the tribe and be able to be rightious and just in their decisions and steering of clan politics. And there are many other examples from a large variety of religions.

Back to yours truly. Personaly I remain in the middle. And contrary to my puberty, happily so. I don't want to (and can't) choose between two genders. I'm bridging the gender divide, in my own way. I have no need to show off with my gender (though I love playing the game, provoking reaction - hence the pictures), I'm just very aware of my state of being human. Gender is just a fraction of being human, it's how you deal with it, how you go about, how you relate with your environment.

"I'm not a woman, I'm not a man
I am something that you'll never comprehend"

Prince

 

 
 
 

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