(For Everyone)

Fears and tears and all these years
You've helped me wipe my eyes.
But now you seem so far away
Like just another ghost.
I wish to find the words to say
Just how far away you seem-
Down the road, and around the corner
And a million miles between.

I'm not sure how it started,
I don't know if it will end,
But one thing is for certain,
I need you now, my friend.

I'm feeling down and lonely,
I'm feeling sad today,
I'm not sure what the reasons are,
But I miss your smiling face.
You always seemed to listen,
But when I need you most,
Your smile has turned the other way,
I'm speaking with a ghost.

Perhaps I am imagining,
Perhaps it is not real,
But lately I've been feeling,
A void has filled that place
Where we would once talk and laugh,
And didn't have to worry
What the time was, when our date was,
Who it was to we spoke.

But now you seem so alien
And I can't imagine why.
Hopefully this day today
Will help me see your side.
I've got so much I need to say,
But I promise to listen too.
I need to know if this feeling I feel-
If you've been feeling it too.

Perhaps we have just grown apart,
Grown too busy or out of heart.
If these reasons do speak true,
Then I will cry,
For I have lost you.
I pray that you will reconcile,
I pray those words are lies.
But every day I do but see
That feelings never lie.

Some may call me jealous,
Some may call me silly,
But most of all I hope you'll call me
And tell me how you're feeling.
Please don't cry, please don't let me see
That glint within your eyes
For if I do, then I will know
That these words I speak ring true to you.

Please don't say you're sorry,
For I have nothing left to lose.
I'm the one who went on talking,
Laughing, giggling, and pretending.
If I could explain myself,
You know it that I would,
But I've spent a page here writing,
And no mysteries have I solved.

Please don't get advice on this one,
As you always seem to do
(After all, wasn't it I
Who you used to come to?)
Figure it out for your self,
And listen to your heart,
Tell me the things I need to hear-
Is it over now or not?

Please don't laugh out loud,
As you always seem to do
When something is important to me
That's not important to you.
It hurts me deep inside,
In a way you can never know
For it is that place inside of me
Where our friendship grows.

Why does no one listen,
When you finally have words to say?
Why does no one seem to care,
When you finally need them there?

--February 2001--