read how my situation with attempted mind control  started.



Really on another planet -
     I turned around and looked into the vast black
space -
     Light years away from my home -
          I know I'll never go back -
        but I haven't accepted it yet
So here I am -
            on this planet - displaced -
I don't know how I got here
            don't know how I got chosen

All these experiments - I have to perform
                        until I die
All for the sake of being
monitored
                               until I die
This is all my life is ever going to mean
             I don't get what people can
                       have, anymore

       I have to adapt
-
One time somebody looked at me
     and spoke to me
and it wasn't a lie

Once somebody looked at me in the
   eye
And they said something, and it
wasn't a lie ---

      
  I might have fallen in love ------

Once somebody asked me a question
because they wanted to know the answer

Once somebody used words to
          express themselves
with words -------
          And it wasn't even for
                 hurting me
Once somebody felt good without
                  hurting me.


When I was a person like
                   everyone else.

Once somebody cared - I can't imagine
why
Once I had something somebody
else wanted
          What do I have that they
      want?
Once it was just life.

Once somebody looked at me
& didn't feel the need to
push me or change me


Once somebody looke at me
               and saw me


Once, I heard rain....& just
        [quiet] out .....

          
      words held a high value -
Exchanged regularaly, like
                currency
   Each one could havr a domino-effec


IN THE BELLY OF THE MONSTER...
-Pad-ettes
-Tampon -ettes
>>Subway ...blablabla
(I hear .".....Edie....
>tohh!<"(someone spit)..."Don't you do that.!"(about my writing their words down, as they speak)
...."
>tohh!<"...."Can I help you?"...">tohh!<"...."change!"...
"I'm warning you"..."CAN I HELP YOU?"... "First of all...(?)(!")......."SEX!!"
SHOPPING LIST  (4/29/02 : around 11 p.m.).
Once, people weren't emotionally dependant on lies.

One day, they all looked at each other
and
nobody was safe


What would cause them to stop?
It's been 8 years, now.
Who's idea was this to begin with - for me to be involved?
Why are they doing this?

- a minute and a half, slice of my life - this is what I hear,..as I write my grocery list...
THIS IS THE 'MY WORDS' HOME PAGE, FOR  POETRY (DREAMWORDS) & VENTING
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  check out the tech facts, about the stalking technology used...


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venting
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MY WORDS  -POETRY / VENT         SITEMAP          
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...being WORN, like a living human overcoat, by others, who 'bought their ticket' for this misery-ride, that THEY'VE created. . .
saves them, from their previous lives of boredom and argueing with each other. Now they all get along looking @ each other, but talking really their own inner fears...
NEWEST ADDITION TO POETRY PAGES...NOT UP YET, WORKING ON IT...
I remember privacy...
TANGEABLE THOUGHTS, NOT IMPERVIOUS
MORNING STABBS YOU IN THE EYE
read about the 1st 3 days of my mind control project's onset
read about the 1st 3 days of my mind control project's onset
discription of my symptoms w/ pictures



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